STUDY!
Monday, April 23, 2007;9:40 PM
this few days, i have been studying like mad.
cause i really want to aim a
GwH for my mid.
i
don't wan any C grade.
which is highly
unlikely be possible.
OHMY!
i have been mugging really hard.
even now having slight fewer.
i still
don't wanna rest.
i just feel wrong resting while i can use the time to study.
HAIS.
AIM FOR THE WEEK:.finish biology, math, geography, account notes
.revise for math, physical, biology, account and more
.gonna mug for every second i have
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GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!
Thursday, April 19, 2007;8:33 PM
woke up 4plus today.i was really nervous.went to school, run through again, make up, breakfast, pray from the school and ms
loh then
HEAD TO SCH!
thinking from the first practice we had until now, i really feel like crying.*
i know is stupid to cry in front of a computer but i can't help it. i had been waiting for this
SYF, seeing the whole school wishing you all the best. seeing yourself contribute something to the school. and also work at a big family, a big team to
achieve what we wanted!and now
WE GOT IT!!!
GOLD WITH HONOURS!we had been working so hard for it.
there are practices that was really bad, good, fun, sad and angry.but without all this experience we won't be able to come here today.we had gone through so many things which are
unforgettable, which will always be in my heart.which bring us from different classes to a ensemble that learn together, to have fun together, to grow together, to bond as a
BIG FAMILY.we are also bless that
GOD had sent us
MR CHOO.he just like the father of the family, imagine a family don't have a father. so
MR CHOO is very important to us. he is such a wonderful instructor! he and
SAC GE really deserve this
GOLD WITH HONOURS!
to all the guitar girl and
mr choo: i will never forget every second of time we had together. we work so hard and now we deserve what we want. i am really happy and proud. we had really make the school proud. without any single one of you, i won't be happy now. i really thank GOD that i am belong to this BIG FAMILY and
appreciate every of your
hard work. lastly, of course i will miss every single one of you people!
ps:senior please do visit us more often. we will surely miss all your pretty faces.
xDi just feel like going back to prepare of
SYF. i miss it like MAD!!!
"...the only blame I cast is on myself... for wanting the happiness I couldn't have... and still now, can't believe I deserve..."Labels: i miss everythings
understand yet confuse
Wednesday, April 18, 2007;12:34 AM
the past 2 days was a disaster. i am so emotional. as i am really stress, due to the amount of projects that needed to hand in at one go and amount of homeworks and also partly cause of SYF(?)hais. i feel like breaking down.
i feeling emo now.it like very late now but i cant sleep. is like something make me don't feel save at all. so i cant sleep peacefully.this time round i am really stress up, all my pimples is coming up.but still thanks to natalie, michelle and natassia for cheering me up yesterday and lighten my job by completing SS project without me doing anything. i feel really bad now. but still a billion thanks to them.
yesterday i only didn't bring a workbook for the first time and teacher scolded me for not bring her books alot of time.yet i need to keep quiet to admit that i really didn't bring her book alot of time.i can admit that is my fault for not bring her book.but please get the fact right first.i hate being accuse!
my heart feel unsafe. it make me feel even more tired. i have been torture by stress from times to times. i choose to keep it all to myself. i just want to cry in my own space at my own freedom.leaving me alone make me feel even more sad yet i want it as i can really let everythings out.keeping it in my heart make me feel out of breath. i will just die.
i don't know what happened to me.i feel so disappointed, sad and stress this few days. now i am worry. i don't know what will happened in school later on. things haven't been going right this few days. i don't know how to solve all the problems. i just feel like scream at all the problems and want them to leave me. i am at the stage of turning crazy. monday night i was so stress and i didn't even want to go to school yesterday.i just need to drag myself to school.
"... lost in the darkness of my own circumstance, criticizing echoes leaving me awake in the night... the barrier and blockades that keep me safe and in control while I pretend that I am okay... "Labels: thank.dear
if it fated
Friday, April 06, 2007;9:10 PM
whoo.
my blog is so dead! didn't blog for so long.
simply because i am really busy and hardly can come online.
anyway had a very fun day today!
went out with natalie,michelle and alaine.
as we plan to study together but end up most of time we were shopping.
went suntec and MS.
saw alot of sacian but not someone.
but me and michelle had a very strong feeling that we will see someone we want to see.
saw siewcheng with her friends at mango;
natassia and melody at city hall;
natassia and amelia and her sister at MS;
and michelle's cousin;natalie's friends and alaine's senior.
one outing we can see so many people we know. YAY!
maybe will post some picture soon.
waiting for 17april we going kbox together.with group of my classmates. WHOO!
13 more days to my syf.
i am so worry whenever i thought of it and i will feel like crying.
i really don't wish that all our afford will go into drain.
people said that we have no expression, song is boring, we reaching the gold soon but still not there.
to me the song will be boring without expression and therefore we still not at gold i guess.
i don't know what can we do to make the ensemble to have at least little expression.
they really need to feel the music, understand the music, move with the music.
put yourself into the music everyone, you gals have been playing it countless time but still you all don't have any expression.i am really worry.what can we do to have some improvement?
maybe you all should go experience how MD feel when ID got gold with H. they really feel the stress and some of them even cried.seeing them like this i feel ashamed, everyone of them know how important is SYF to tell and their target is GOLD. i don't know about the guitar girl but i know someone us also know how important is SYF just that maybe not all.
if you have no heart in SYF, will you really work hard for it?
someone have been miss calling me like mad today.MADNESS!
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