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hurt

Wednesday, February 28, 2007;8:34 PM

no one can understand how i feel now.
the feeling is SO PAIN.
i just feel like i gonna die soon.

all i want is to just like you,
i didnt want anything from you.
it hurting me, you is hurting me.
i am really sad and hurt.
can you tell me what should i do now?

back to normal,please!

Labels: i am so SAD

sister

Tuesday, February 27, 2007;10:24 PM

i has a cute and retarded sister!
she so blur lah!
yesterday she lost her movie ticket but today i found it in the kitchen!
how retarded is she!
and when i found it,she thought i am the one who hid it!
she so lame.
anyway, i wonder when will she get a boyfriend.
i am waiting.
i really wonder who will it be!
overall, my sister still very nice!

my body is breaking!it had been aching seen yesterday.
it feel like my bones going to break anytime!
ohmygosh!
anyway, now in class people around me all talk about boy GIRL relationship stuff.
it so interesting!
hahaha!

don't leave me.

Labels: i am so SAD

girl love

Monday, February 26, 2007;8:50 PM

slack slack!
have 2 hours of free period, cause both of my science teacher never come.
hope tomorrow no SS, although it wasn't really bad. but tomorrow wont be a good day for SS.
math test tomorrow.please!i want to pass this test!
NO FAILS!

i cant get rid of you from my mind.
every of your little action will just affect me.
i have totally no mood to study.
i really wanna CRY OUY LOUD!
it hurt.it sad.it bad.but there are still laughter.
cause is you who can only be the one to make my day.

i decided to tell that person, one day.

Labels: i want to be with you

feeling & thoughts

Sunday, February 25, 2007;10:40 PM

there always up and down in life. so i have to accept the fact.
which is what i am doing now.
but i haven't come to a decision yet.
i don't know should i stay and work harder to become a better leader.
or step down and become a normal student.
both 50/50. so i still need time.
when i come to a decision i hope that i wont regret. if not i will feel even more worst.
amantha told me that, when making decision don't think too much, if not at the end of the day you still haven't come up any decision. so from now on, i just follow my heart and decide anythings, just hope that i won't feel regret with any of my decision.

i don't want to think so much now.
all i want now is focus on my study and guitar(maybe prefect). i dont have other time for other things, i guess.
all i want is to have a better day for tomorrow!

my grandparent's house

my grandparent's old house

the road!

where the chickens stay.

i love to sit on it! x)

my cousins:

done by marilyn, i love it LOTS!

random

my sister

i love her!

lastly; HAPPY PIG YEAR! =)

Labels: you make me happy

normal thursday

Thursday, February 22, 2007;9:53 PM

everythings is very normal today, nothing good or bad happen.
just that i don't need to pass up CAJ today but tomorrow.
which mean tonight i going to stay up and do my CAJ!

once again, i tried my best to pay attention today during lesson.
and i realise that geography and biology are the subjects that i will always fail for the tests!
i don't know why too.
i studied but my brain just can't take in.
getting progress card soon, i really don't want to see my progress card!
it will just fill with red ink!=(

oh! i saw another HANKIMI book today at popular!
i wanna buy but i don't know what is it about!
but i still want to buy!
and which mean i going to start saving up!
cause my parent eat my ANGPAO money again!

cca tomorrow, hope that tomorrow will be a good day!

is you and the only you.

Labels: is you who i love.

loving

Wednesday, February 21, 2007;8:26 PM

i want to slim down!i am sssooooo FAT!
ohmygosh!
i going to stop eating from now on!

i manage to pay attention for math lesson!
the feel of fall in love with math again is coming back.
hope i can manage it throughout this few years but still i don't really understand some part of the lesson!
some kind soul, please enlighten me!

whenever i begin to miss you like mad
or thought that i won't be able to see you again for the rest of the day,
you will just appear in front of me.
and you will just change my cheerless day to a very happy one.
knowing that you still around me, it will just brighten my day!

maybe it will be good if we just maintain like that.

Labels: until i see you.

a wish

Tuesday, February 20, 2007;8:18 PM

chinese new year's holiday is over! =(
had a lot of angbao and ate a lot foods! o.O
overall, this trip back to malaysian is okies.
didn't go shopping at all! cause all the shops was close!
anyway, still happy to see my little cousins.
ohmygosh! they are sooooo cute and innocent.
i just miss my childhood.
how nice if i was still a child.
took a number of pictures of my little cousin and some classy and retro stuff. shall upload if i can. =)
anyway, REBONDED my hair. it doesn't look like VERY straight cause i don't really want.
but still i feel quite okies with it, i guess.

everyone wish me luck tomorrow, i feel damn scared now!!!

is you who make my day.

Labels: 只想在你身边偷偷爱着你

she need her.

Thursday, February 15, 2007;8:45 PM

didn't go for tutorial today, cause i wasn't feeling well*but this is not the real reason
thanks to ms wendy for allowing me not to go.

very moody this few day.
didn't do my homework cause i really cant concentrate
didn't study cause i really cant concentrate
failed all my tests cause i cant remember any single things.*beside her
i really need to wake up but my heart doesn't want.
maybe the new year break is a good time for me to sort out every things.

i am waiting for tomorrow after school
going out with buddy, although only me and her
but i still hope we will have a good time.

youjustlikemysourceofenergy
witouttissourceofenergyitotallycantwork
ireallyneedu
butijusthopeicanjuststayatursidencontinuetolyku
plsdontreatmesocold.

somebody need you

Labels: control your feeling, dont let your feeling control you

high!

Tuesday, February 13, 2007;9:27 PM

today rehearsal suck. but thanks to daphne to accompany me to "walk".
what a bad day!
and i am so slow! i didn't even know that my buddy cherie didnt come to school. ohmygosh!
anyway my buddy just rock my life. she totally so cute and nice okies! cherie rock!!!
i just realise, i haven't been blogging anything about guitar for quite sometime. maybe will blog tomorrow seen we are performing for the Japanese student and i will be like the "solo"!
ps: i miss angelyn's tag at my blog!

不知不觉我爱上了你，不知不觉我需要你。
因为你的笑，你的一举一动然我知道你的存在。
而因为你，我才能天天笑得很开心，天天想着你。
也因为你，我不想也不要离开你。
所以，就然我在你身边偷偷爱着你。

my birthday wishes:
be more cheerful
gold with honor for SAC GE SYF2007
with that person at long as possible! =)

let get HIGH tomorrow!

Labels: is you who i love.

it suck!

Monday, February 12, 2007;8:41 PM

what a "nice" day.
but still, really thanks to all those people for the wishes.
today is the day i can see all the true colours, i guess...

emtruhohwusi.
osepohyllaer metsurtnacuepohyllaertsuji.
udeeniesuac tneserpurrofsknahtyllaerillitstub.

today is not my day, although it suppose to be my.
is going to over in a few hours time.

i'm so regret that i didnt know u earlier.

Labels: i didmt know u, until i see you.

syf camp

Sunday, February 11, 2007;7:52 PM

whoohoo!
so fast, camp is over.
anyway, i enjoy it man.
with my buddy ah liew aka the pebbles(given by caryn and daphne), i had a lot of fun.
both night had supper with daphne, my buddy, caryn and more.
had a lot of fun with them man! we like laughing crapping and CRAPPING!!!
we took pictures too. but i deleted almost half. cause the picture is ugly MA!!!
and didn't have the chance to take photo with janaine. i'm so sad. =(

i love ensemble now!although my fingers hurt!
is like really very pain okies!!!
i enjoy every single pieces and i just feel like moving with it.
everybody, MOVE MAN!!!
anyway, there was improvement but still no expression.
gavotte wasn't really good. rushing as well.
people move with the music and you wont play wrong.
//
video record.
i totally have no face now!
cause i did a lot of stupid things.
ohmygosh!
we also need to carry our niborri guitar to run/walk around the bball court.
and me and sarah is like suffering, our CONTRA is like so BIG.
but, we still had fun and laughter.
//
thanks to mr choo.
everyone gone high yesterday night.
he play and we sang songs together.
and i become his mike stand.
his playing ROCK, our singing ROCK! =)
//
tuesday got rehearsal! i don't want man!i will be alone!
but at least my nice senior is going to accompany me home.
whoohoo!
tomorrow is a special day, however i very scared.
=)
//
having eating problem this few days, i almost everyday eating nuggets to survival.
i didn't even have a proper meal. cause after eating few mouth i am full.
i totally have no appetite. and this had continues for one week.
hope i had slim down cause of this.
and i having mood swing now and then. is like one moment i am sad but later i am HIGH!
OHNO!!!
//
anyway,today when to buy shirt for the tuesday thingy.
and finally i brought something i want, i guess.
i feel like tired now, however i still got tons of homework haven't do.
so i need to do NOW!!!

three persons, know my deepest secret!!!

Labels: i need coffee

is you!

Thursday, February 08, 2007;8:05 PM

school as usual.
then tutorial.
after tutorial meet daphne and caryn and go eastpoint to eat then walk walk. and the moment with them i just cant stop laughing. we CRAP A LOT. especially daphne i didnt know she so CRAPPY!ohoh! daphne teach me and crayn how to make star using straw. YAYAY!! i know how to make! anyway, actually something very funny happened just now, but i am suffering from STM so i cant remember. =(

SYF camp tomorrow. o level result will be out tmr! good luck to all the o level student!
i miss all the guitar seniors! =(

i didnt know you will affect me until so much. i really need to get over it.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007;6:46 PM

all i have now is homework homework AND homework
if not it will be test test AND test.
is too stress.

i going to fail all my test. i become so stupid man. all my marks is droping. all my test is a FAIL! i really dont want to see so many red ink in my report card. i really dont want!

why must i know everything? it will be really good if i dont know anything!

WALAO!!!

Labels: i donno and dowan to know

thanks you!

Tuesday, February 06, 2007;5:17 PM

okies, i feel so sleepy now. cause i slept at 2 last night and woke up at 6 today. so tired!

anyway, i am so happy today i dont need to pass up CAJ cause if i need to pass up i so going to die. cause i dont have enough articles.YAY!!!not handing up of CAJ today! stayed back today, for prefects meeting. then help the february and january babies to celebrate birthday, so sang song and ate cake!!! prefect council really very nice. =)

need to thanks
michelle chew for helping me with my wound yesterday;
jaslin and natalie for helping me up and down the stairs;
phyllis for carrying my books;
marilyn for helping me to copy my notes;
and teachers who had allowed me to sleep during their lesson. =)

ate 5.1's handmade cornflakes for recess. the cornflakes was really sweet and nice. love it man!!! anyway, i want to check 5.1 for this whole year!!! my duty will end after this term. they are really nice. when you get to know them, they are even more nice!

lastly, a big thanks to DAPHNE, my nice senior who dont bully me but allow me to bully her.
SHE JUST MADE MY DAY, YESTERDAY! thank thank. see, how nice is my senior.

going to take a short nap and do my homework.

Labels: you brighten my day

i miss the past; cause i love it

Sunday, February 04, 2007;1:04 PM

is februray already; one month of school life had just past.
is februray already; here come a new month
is februray already; every things is still the same
is februray already; everyone just live as usual
is februray already; i still continues to lie to myself.
cause i always thought that there are still hope...

around 2 more months to SYF. and i sort of had remember all my SYF pieces.YAY!!!
now i cant wait for SYF camp and the march concert. which i still will go if my parent don't allow.
now cca is more then cca.

for my study... i don't know how. my geography teacher which is my form teacher wanna call my parent cause i forget to bring something for her lesson twice. but in the end, she didn't call. i don't know why too. weird!anyway, never mind. i love account now, trying to understand every single thing that mdm kee said. for math, just hope that i wont fail my standard test which i getting back tomorrow.biology not bad, can understand well, hope that the coming test i can at least get a B or A. the rest of the subjects i trying my best to understand every single thing that the teachers said. just hope my mid-year wont be bad.

yesterday was msging daphne the whole day until now, is more then 24hours, can u believe it!!! but in between we stop for a while. and she a very nice senior which love to bully her junior but still very nice.(hahaha) beside msging, i was in front the computer for like the whole day! just to find blogskins. but in between i went to watch television and have my meal. what a slack saturday! so i need to start MUGGING NOW!!!

again monday tomorrow! oh no!!!

Labels: is this good or bad?