was quite stress and busy the past with days. i want to die liao! is super tiring man!!! and a very big BAD NEW!!! from now on i going to stay back every day after school!!! this is really BOO!! im so tired! and today was mad!! three test in a row, is like one day you have three test. and i totally have no time to study every single subject cause yesterday got rehearsal at SCH!!! i going to faint man!

anyway, 5/1 rock man! when first checking this class i was really worry but actually they are really nice. although i still scared of them(beside daphne;siew cheng and caryn). SUPPORT 5/1!!! they are selling theirs products tomorrow too!!! 5/1 is a batch of nice people!!! =)

bass did a good job today. i'm really happy about it. although i know i very mean, very fierce and what so ever. but i was trying to make you all play louder and move with the music. but you people really did a good job. be proud man!!! keep up the good work! =)

i don't know what will my february be?! but every year february is a very special month for me, cause one of the 2 days will be a big day for me and sis. february is short and sweet!

i just going to faint with all the workload!!!

Labels: hate homework

HANA KIMI main character will be at TM tomorrow from 7 onward! should i go? i don't know man. this is my last chance to see WU ZUN before they leave singapore, and i don't know when will be my next. but is 7pm so late and i might be going alone. so i don't know. but i really feel like going. they will be leaving singapore soon. i really don't want to miss this chance. how?!

sometime, i really don't understand what parents for. out of one sudden, i will just got scolding from them for no reason.cant they be more understanding. and so idiot, there's a high chance i cant go SACPS next week to help up. cause my father dont allow, due to a quarrel yesterday morning. walao. it wasn't my fault at all. i just woke up and got scolding, and i had already being nice not to talk bad. when i talk bad, you all scold, when i keep my mouth shout you all also scold. siao people!must well i die better. idiot lah! i had enough of things troubling me, i don't need more!!!
i so don't know how to tell my parent about the concert on 24 march at NUS which i really want to go! ARGH!!!

people really miss camp corri like mad. i trying to get over it, since it really OVER. not going to post photos cause i lazy. anyway, SACIAN(sec 3) is crazy about the instructor, but i think the most popular one will be RAVEN! cause he is cute, young and in basketball. so who wont fall for him?! even i like him, BUT i like him doesn't mean the love like, can just be LIKE it is as simple as that so is up to anyone of you to believe anot.

camp corri`o7, a tremendous camp that will always be in my and everyone hearts!

Labels: should i or shouldn’t i

so embarrassed. when having ensemble my first string busted! thank goodness it didn't burst during any performance, hope it wont burst during SYF if not i will start crying. i don't know why it will busted, i didn't even play on that string and it just busted. so stupid. BOO!

was crazy today, did a lot of crazy stuff. i don't know why i just love sport now. i sort of thinking ways to learn basketball. but i just don't know how. and i want to tan myself. i want to become more tan. anyway, today really mad man. i just went crazy cause of someone in front of my instructor. so ma lu. next time will find the right time to do the right thing man.

don't feel good, as in emotionally. i don't know why. i just miss the camp so much. i just miss every single things and every single souls!and i felt that some thing is missing in my life that why this two days i feel so restless. do i really need that thing now! ohmygosh! how?!

i know is wrong, but all my heart is with you now.

Labels: out of control

hmm...feeling emotional now.
life had been up and down for me. things doesn't always happened in what i want. not all my wish will come true. i will always face difficulty. there will be time i will be alone, will be crying, will be happy, will be crazy. i had gone through all this, and there are still something more waiting for me. all i have to do is to be strong. but where can i find a source of energy to make me always be strong?i really wonder...

i complain for the unfairness and biasness. and someone told me that this world is unfair. i guess i need to agree with it now. things are really unfair. all i can do is to accept it. this is the world. but, i guess i still have some hope to continues to find my good friend, lover and soul mate.i'm still waiting.

the journey of my life, still a long way more to go. and i learnt some thing from the pulan ubin walk, life is like climbing a hill, when you are walking up hill there will always be a down hill waiting for you. look forward to everyday. =)

Labels: something is wrong

back from camp. tired smelly but FUN!!!
3/4 WON THE BEST CLASS CHEER!!! WHOOT~~~
and we took alot of class picture. shall post it when i get the photos!

DAY1: fun;aching;cried;scared;play
had dragon boat at kallang first. was fun and nice but my body is aching! while dragon boating i was screaming and screaming cause i afraid of water and the people was moving and moving so it feel like i going to drop into the water. had battle with other class. and WE WON!!! 3/4 rock!!!after that head to sentosa for trapeze. i cried. cause i was super scared. then my friend is screaming then i cried more louder. when the instructor let go his hand and let me go, i flew off to another end of the net. thanks god i didn't flew out of the net. but it was under my expectation. so stupid i want to swing myself one. but in the end i flew off! stupid!next was night walk! is at ferry point there! i went before. it was quite tiring but we bond more i guess. first night i slept well. =)
Day2:MUDDY;tiring;high;sleepy
pulau ubin, walk and walk. so tiring but had a lot of fun cause we got someone to disturb and play with. we walked for around 4-5 hours and head back to school. the bus trip is fun!team activities. need to pass through a rope. and our class keep on losing but it was okies, at least we complete the whole thing. second night, slept like a pig!
Day3:high;tired;home;miss camp
bukit batok was the last place of the camp that my class went. didn't do any high high stuff. cause not enough time plus i don't dare cause i scared of high.took photo with the weird weird instructor and went back to school.
overall, the camp is an enjoyable. first time! usually i don't really like school camp. but now i love it man! it make me feel like going to obs camp. thanks to every single soul that had made the camp shall a wonderful one! =)

all the test is really coming up! i haven't even rest and i feel stress now!school mad one. i going to die man! SYF and everything is coming up!!! how am i going to cope?

you just dash into my life and left without saying a goodbye.

Labels: am i the outstanding one in ur eyes?

WHOOT~~~
i getting high! cause of someone and something! listening to some guitar CD now, songs with strumming, make me feel like moving along with the music. nice! totally cant wait for friday! cca rock man! oh oh! learning strumming now! hope will have some improvement soon! GUITAR ROCK!!!

tomorrow is camp, and i haven't pack my bag. i totally don't feel like packing so i can use the time to play guitar .but i cant! anyway, i hate school camp! i only like guitar or prefect camp! pray that nothing happen during the camp! the camp just so not nice. why school must *force* us to go. also not we want to go one. if they want us to bond more as a class can do other stuff what, need not be camp what. why why why!!! then SYF camp cant overnight! so stupid! that camp should more be overnight loh! anyway, if camp don't have overnight it not a camp is a cca practice! just that the timing is long. i got a feeling that a lot of people cant come or will leave early! cause it will end very late! if overnight will be better loh!!! BOO!!!

anyway, brought my "new wear* clothing. is a white cross back top and purple short! i don't really like it. but bo bian. cause if i don't buy by today, i won't have the money to buy. cause the money is my mummy give one, if i didn't buy any shirt today, she will take back the money! maybe i will save up and buy another one that i like one. after that meet joycelyn, cause she need to pass my track pant. then i saw caryn and daphne! chatted a little and went home.totally saw a lot of sacian at east point!

btw, to all sacian! go look at the year book, class 1/2, 1/3 and 1/4 the back round. and you all can see something weird. it really scary!!!

from next week onward! i going to be siao! cause all the texts and stuffs all coming up! SYF rehearsal at SCH is around the corner!!!

Labels: laughter

went to help up at sacps today, will be going next week too!! all the primary 2 kids is so CUTE!!! eyes big big one, small in size then keep on smiling. they are so cute. cant wait to see them! oh well, me and amatha felt that mr choo really understand the primary 2. (there a reason behind it!) after that, went to airport to eat sakae sushi. and i want the member card! i want i want! anyway, it will be my last good meal before the stupid camp on monday. BOO! we chatted a while then head to starbuck to get amantha's mug and had a cup of mocha with java chip and so on. after that head back to home! =) when reached home, called phyllis cause i going to her house to play guitar. after that we went to east point cause i want to buy FAHRENHEIT's album. i dont is it i shuay or lucky cause when i want to by the cd it is out of stock and one week ago the stock just came in and out of stock now, this shown how popular is FAHRENHEIT. cause cd was out of stock i brought HANA KIMI book, is the autograph collection one!!! which got a lot of photo. =)

actually, today i was happy but i dont know why i feeling sad now. maybe cause i cant go for fahrenheit autograph session. i so want to go but cant go. anyway, hana kimi 1-10 is out. everyone go now! support hana kimi and fahrenheit!!! sad sad sad. feel like crying now! oh no!!!

i cant wait for guitar on friday. i so missit now! i brought prime guitar home to try out some struming and thanks mr choo for lending me the book. i really want cca and no school! btw, my birthday fall on one of the monday, which got school and it will be a long day! cause got cca too! i dont know is i shuay or lucky but i hope nothing bad will happen on that day!

so stupid! i dont know what to do. so stupid. i feeling tired. i dont know who to believe. but it seem that there are still fate. so stupid. maybe it just qiao-he. but even there are still fate, we will never be possible, not even friend. cause is impossible!

Labels: smile; inlove; quarrel; wait; cried; tear; pain; giveup; miserable

a wonderful friday! i love friday!
today is a nice and beautiful day! the bigger problem i having now had solved! everyone is back as usual! i love cca today! me and sarah was trying our best to play LOUD LOUD. and our thumb hurt. but is okies.
ps:BASS, you gals did a good jobs, keep it up and you all will have more sweets. hahha. =)

got year book today, did a bit of class cheer. play and lot of lot. today is really a nice day. i can laugh and laugh and laugh. anyway, going to help up at sacps tomorrow and going to phyllis's house after that to play guitar and learn some struming from her. yeah!

i donno is fate anot. but you will always be around me. i dont want and u don want too. but i cant help it. hope it will stop soon. cause it will only bring up the memories.

it only take one second to smile just see whether how you going to smile, how you going to feel.

Labels: it still wont be possible between you and me even though we still have fate.

i sort of cant really take it anymore. i guess is too stress and too many things need to do. every time some thing will happened and i will break down. and now is not the right time for me to break down, cause i dont have time. 24hours doesn't seen enough for me. i sort of tired and restless. every days i just do things for the sake of doing it. i not even enjoying myself. the feeling is bad.

my day,week,year suck! whatever things is all my fault, there always be biasness. so this is how should it called fair, i guess. in the very first point they already think that you are in wrong, so what the point of explaining so much when they already had set that mindset. is just wasting the time, i guess. just accept every things whether is good or bad, then if cant take it, just cry out and every things will be back to the same. so won't it be easier?!

every things is so idiot. every time like that. every time i will get blame. what so ever. i guess i had already get use to it. thanks goodness that i didnt burst out today, i mange to control my tears. i just dont freaking get it. i trying my best of every thing, but in the end i will get more and more scolding or lecture. i really dont get it. whatever i do seen wrong. the whole damn thing is so freaking not fair and bias. the world is unfair?! what the. maybe is true that the world is unfair if not there wont be so many riots or strikes. stupid. whatever or so. the whole damn thing is all the biasness. so what the point of talking so much. is super bias! so shut up everyone. what you all said just lie! get lost from my life.

i need a shoulder to lean on.

Labels: the unfairness world. stupid bias.

today is not a good day! feeling very moody now. it feel like i missing something or someone but i don't know what. maybe actually i know just that i don't feel like facing it. heartache. feel like crying. what stupid cum disappointing day.

everything today was bad. had lot of lot of homework. and i know i should be starting it now but my soul is not at my homework now, it at some where else. hais. anyway, knew something very shock. why on the world doesn't God want me to know about it. cause i cant do anything even if i know. but it make me feel worse. everything just seen impossible.

for cca. i don't know what to say. hais. anyway, it wasn't as good as the last practice. mr choo was disappointing. and i feel like dying. totally no mood, no feel. so today playing was bad(for myself). i cant find any more reason for me to go for cca.

super pissed about something. is the biasness that shown and still want to find excuse. what the! if cant be a fair person then as least don't be so bias. it obvious, people not blind or don't have heart.have a limit.i just can't stand it! ARGH! is so irritating!

Labels: i just want a little more wishes

just cut my hair! i just thin every thing excluding for my front, it was short. and i not tying my hair tomorrow so get to see my new hair style. kuku.

okies now everyone listen up! i got something important need to ask!!! who is going to FAHRENHEIT's autograph session?please "bring" me along. cause i want to go but don't want to go alone. so people tell me if you are going! i want to go!!!

HANA KIMI dvd is out! but the first five episode only. i waiting for vcd! i getting crazy cause of HANA KIMI and FAHRENHEIT. ohno!

it gonna be difficult

Labels: soul

suddenly, i have no faith in myself. after yesterday night, when the prefect council was talking to me. i felt that i dont believe or trust myself anymore. cause i dont know even know whether i can be a good leader anot. if i cant, what the point of having me this leader when i cant lead but i have to lead other people. how? i dont know why am i thinking this way?! suddenly i feel like giving up everythings. hais.

went to help up at sacps today. every things was okies. one of the pri one, very cute! the eyes big big one, damn cute lah! omg!anyway, after that went to TM with mr choo,amantha,sherrill, angelyn and sindy. angelyn and sindy didnt join us for lunch. had a fab. lunch and went home after that. but before leaving TM, me,sherrill and sindy went to mj cause i was finding for fahrenheit's cd and i found hana kimi's cd too. i think the hana kimi cd that i saw is the show not the songs one. so i going to buy! need to save up now!

anyway, sec 3 camp corri had cancel the trip to malaysia and it will be in school. so kuku. which mean i have to go. so idiot. cause of the damn flooding and make everyone need to go for the camp. idiot lah! almost the whole sec 3 was unhappy that the camp is in school but happy that they are not going pahang. stupid!

SYF is getting nearer and nearer. and i like over work! cause every day, i need to do prefect,cca and homework stuff. so i like stress up. i dont even have time to revise my works. so kuku. hais. hope i can over come all this asap in a proper way.

sec 3 life is not easy. got alot of works. i really scared that i will fail any of my subject, thanks goodness that standard haven't start yet.hais. everythings just happen in one go and i dont know start from which one. goodness!

stress is something that you must love it instead of hating it.

Labels: is difficult to act happy when actually you are not happy at all...

just came home from school. finally the day had over! actually, today wasn't really very bad. just okies. but i dont know for tomorrow. hais. anyway, every things was okies until mr hamzah class for biology, i think he was really rude but his teaching was not too bad. when he trying to recap about our notes, he called index number. and i'm so shuay, he called me! so i stand up, and i donno how to answer.OHMYGOSH! from that moment when i stood up i start shivering, even when i had sit down, it took me 15 mins to cool myself down! it was really scary! i really hope he will never call me again! chinese was so-so. quite boring, feel like sleeping. but got sherrill beside me so we chat a little. english,math and etc was all okies. hope tomorrow will be a FINE day!

didnt sleep well yesterday! i dont know why too?! just cant sleep, went to bed at 12 plus but slept at 1 plus then wake up at 2 plus. so irritating. and cause of didnt sleep well, i was so tired today, and tonight dont think can sleep early cause i got quite a number of homework. boohoo.

a little things to share:
what ever you do, follow your heart.

Labels: hopeless

as everyone know school had reopen. is an bad open. it totally BAD! i just hate school hours! i begin to love cca and prefect more. i don't know why too. but during cca and prefect i feel so like me. can just really be myself and don't worry for any things.

the past three days of school was FINALLY OVER! my form teacher is ms wendy, english is ms yeo(new teacher), math is mdm hamidah( relief teacher for term one after sem 2 will be ms yeong), chinese is mrs chong(prefects teacher-in-charge), account is mdm kee, phy is ms saleha, biology is mr hamzah(a very strict teacher), soical studies is mrs loke/ms chua(new teacher) and pe teacher is mrs chua. that all for my teacher. give me some comments if you all know who are they. anyway, weekend now. but after tomorrow will be monday again! can someone just make monday don't come. i just hate monday!

cca orientation and sec 1 parent night had over! next is audition and SYF stuff. audition will be on wednesday! really hope all the 64 people will come for the audition, pray hard! and pray for my name tag will be done soon! i am waiting very eagerly. cause i don't want to wear the BIG name tag i had now. a lesson learnt, don't even lost yout name tag or what!

overall, this week was okies. btw, my height remind 170 which mean i had a high chance of stop growing (yeah!) and for my weight it will be secret. guitar exam result was out! not really happy about it. hais. anyway, it cant be change. so just forget it. maybe, wont take my grade two. don't feel like.

that all for my week!

Labels: parent simply dont understand their child

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