last day of 2006! tomorrow will be 2oo7! oh no! anyway, got to know what chinese class i going next year! i in band 2 with sherrill only and some 2/3 people! and im the last of band 2. so kuku! don't feel like be in the class, got a really really bad feeling!most of the guitar girls got in to band 1! surprising that guitar people were good in chinese! :p

anyway, yesterday performance was good, i guess. but i accidentally drop a stand in the middle of the concert. thanks to the people that help me pick up the stand.(thank you) hmm...to me, yesterday performance doesn't feel like a performance. i don't feel nervous or what. it just like a practice to me, but maybe cause there wasn't much audience so i doesn't feel stress!

christmas had over! and i would like to thanks, sherrill and jocyelyn for the christmas cards, amantha, cherie, mayvelle and someone for the christmas presents and everyone for the christmas greetings. =)

2007 tomorrow. bye bye 2006. had a horrible and wonderful 2006. started it badly and will end badly too. but through out this year, i still enjoyed myself. it filled with joy, happiness, sadness and lots more, it a emotional year! and thanks to SAC Guitar Ensemble that had given me all this but of course my friends and family. this year, was my noise year. cause i was very noise from the 2 half of the year onward. until mr choo cant stand it.*laugh* and got lot of lecture from him too, but without all those lecture i don't think i can grow. cause i wont know my mistake and i wont learn from it. so thank you mr choo! 2006 is not my best year but i still had a lot of fun with all the guitar gals and special thanks to angelyn,amantha,cherie and sherrill. without you gals i wont have gone through so many difficult stages in my life, all your encouragement was the energy for me to move on of my life.
2006, made me cried a lot, first time felt like a cry baby(beside with i still a baby) but without all those crying i wont had look at brighter side of every each new day. had a great 2006 =)

i wonder, what will my life be in 2007?

Labels: tears

christmas is over and new year is coming. but i dont really feel happy about it. cause i dont know what will happen in the future and i dont wish to know too. hais. anyway, went to make my ez-link card just now BUT i cant make cause i didnt bring some stuff plus the photo must be taken in school uniform. so stupid lah! i had already took the photo without school uniform. so i have to take another one!!! so damn pissed off! make one ez-link card also got so many problems. when can the shui-ness get loss from me!!! i dont even feel like going out now! whenever i go out something bad will happen. HAIS!

anyway, performance is coming, new year is coming and school is going to reopen soon. hais. i totally cant wait for my next holiday!!!

totally have no energy to do anything now. cause i cant stand the unlucky stuff keep on happening around me!!! HELP!!!

Labels: when can this be over?

just came back from TM with my sis cause i need to accompany her to buy her christmas present. and TM is flooded, so MANY PEOPLE! but i saw a lot of people too! i saw my primary school classmate, sherrill and her family and jingyin and yinghua. anyway, my sis brought my a mango tank top. *thumb up*

headache today, so going to take my nap later, which is quite late. so when i wake up i can have my dinner. what a pig day!

sec 1 orientation for cca is going to be very rushing. two day after school reopen. things haven't done yet. hais. now need to start working on camp too, seen amantha is back. im going to busy again. and school is going to reopen in 1 week plus time! HAIS!!!

Labels: how shld i face it?

didn't get to post the past few day, cause i was at chalet. overall, the prefects' chalet was okies, not bad. did enjoy myself.

went to school today, after that went to meet cherie at eastpoint with angelyn then went to bugis to shop and lunch. and i got a bad and good news. let my start with the bad one first.
it is:
i lost my handphone!!!!*lighting strike* although it wasn't a very ex. model but i lost handphone with all my money and the guitar picks that i just brought which i love it so much. now i left with nothing, wanted to make ez-link card also cant. really very unlucky. had already lost my wallet and now handphone with all my money and stuff. and tomorrow i cant go back to school to help up with the sec 1 registration, i really want to help up but my parent don't allow, im grounded now!!!*lighting strike* i cant go out, cant go to school during holiday, i cant use the computer when they at home and i might not be able to go for the performance with tpjc.*lighting strike* the feeling totally suck. sorry, if i use the four letter words but the feeling is really suck. plus i cant get any phone until dont know went cause my parent dont trust me to be more careful. i really feel like crying now. although my sim card can be replace but what the point of having a sim card but no phone. so stupid. i cant believe i can be so careless and i really feel like killing that person who stole my phone and every things. i going to curse and swear that person like hell. cause of that stealing im suffering like dont know what now. what the fuck! and i know it was someone that stole it cause, when we first called my phone it was ringing but when the next time we called it was switch off. so is obviously that someone had stole it! now my family is like blaming me for losing my wallet with the damn ez-link and phone and my money. is also not my choice. walao. can all the unlucky luck get lost from me! wtf!

anyway, the good new is cherie brought me HANA KIMI book today for my christmas present. i love it lots although it doesn't have any picture. CHERIE ROCK! she just brought it for me when i said i want. ohmygosh! she just simply rock!and she is really nice, cause she accompany me to go find my phone back although it gone now!
PS:THANK YOU, CHERIE

anyway, i not in a good mood now. a lot of unlucky stuff is happening and i very scared yinghua will angry cause i not going tomorrow. what the hell is all this! i really feel like dying now or what. without all the stuffs i feel so empty now! i just want all my stuffs back!

Labels: what the fuck

im finally done with some of my stuff. is really finally! done with packing my room, due to my mother forcing. but anyway, need to thanks her if not i don't know when i will start packing my room. threw away all my secondary school stuff beside some books and cca stuff. feel so good now, threw away all the bad. anyway, done with another thing too will tell you all what it is when 27 come. anyway, now a day, every day rain. which is good and bad.

somewhere this week need to eat tang yuan i think. i love to eat tang yuan but i only eat with peanut. i wanna eat tang yuan! anyway, my sis went for her driving theory test today and she passed. congrats to her. she going to start on her practical soon. so luck to her.


msn-ing with jingyin now. so funny can! we talking about fei lun hai, hana kimi, tang yu ze and wu zun. all my love. ohmygosh! we are like so crazy now. *laugh*

finish reading one book, quite meaningful. got quite a number for quote in it. which i can apply in my life. is good to read book! =)

"throw away the bad and move on with the goods"

Labels: memories is some thing for you to remember but not feel miserable with it.

start making guitar video. going to make a nice nice one. and cause of finding photos for the video, i felt like i like one pervert going around people account to get all the photos. but dont get misunderstand by it, i am SUPER NORMAL.

i finally start doing some thing out of the so many things i need to do. but i still got a lot of things need to be done. it would be really good if the school will never going to reopen again but i still want to go for cca.anyway, talking about cca. i feel like having a concert. i miss the time when we at VCH preparing for the concert. i really miss it.

i finally had given up on some thing! cause my heart had freaking dead, i wont hope for any freaking things from today onward. cause i am freaking tired. feel so relived that i finally can give up on it. really need to thanks that person. is going to be the last tears for this freak thing.

i want a day to play for my madnes.

Labels: no more sadness

song recommend, it was another song in HANA KIMI. is really a nice song. listen and understand the music.here the lyric:

专属天使 (tank)
我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

WO 要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
oh 绝望的以为生命只有黑夜

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

hope you will enjoy it! =)

anyway, last mins decision, i am going for the prefects chalet due to some reason. anyway, so which mean i will miss the extra practice for cca. hope i will enjoy the chalet or some things.

i feel like going out and take some fresh air, and the best place will be the beach. i wanna go to the beach!

Labels: is friendship a harm or good?

super bad day! first, wake up in the early morning and i had flu cum running nose for the whole day. second, when i leaving my house to meet people, it started raining HEAVILY. third, my mood wasn't good today. four, my phone bill just come. fifth, my mum was scolding me about my bill. BUT! at least some thing happened to cheer my mood up a bit. thanks to that person!

i hate flu, it just make me feel like dying. i hate it!

suddenly, i feel like touring around the world, get to know the idols i like and do every things with some want i want. i going to save lot of lot of money so i can tour around the world, i guess my first stop will be Taiwan then Brunei and so on. suddenly, i feel like touching snow now, i guess the feeling will be really good. i feel like doing a lot of things now! and my mood is better now cause i don't know why too. hehehe.

i want to explore the world!

Labels: cheer me up

some photo that we took yesterday:

stupid mood still doesnt seen to be good but i guess is better then yesterday. anyway going out later, the people i going out with is some how indirectly or directly relatated to sherrill. i dont feel like going out, but cause of some reason i have no choice. super irritated now, maybe i shall go eat some chocolate to cheer my mood up.

actually, i should be quite busy now. cause i got a number of things need to be done before 2007 come. but most of them, wasnt my choice so i just have to do it. cause it wasnt my choice, i totally dont feel like doing it, maybe one fine day when i in a good mood i shall start doing it but the day surely not now cause my mood now is bloody bad.

in one rainy day, a girl was holding a blue umbrella walking down the streets thinking how should she continue with her life with all the horrible mess.......

Labels: it just doesn't work

just pissed off by some thing. i already quite irritated by my stupid ez-link card problem and so on and here come this problem to irritate me. for the past i had been taking every things in, even if it was good or bad, even if it was my wrong or others, even if it made me cried or laughed but it doesn't mean that i can forever take in things that doesn't concern me. it had came to my limit. is ENOUGH! one more thing and i going to burst out!

what a emo day i had, mood swing here and there.
meeting was a long one. but i don't know why after the meeting, i am more confuse. maybe it was like what amantha said, as after the meeting there are more things need to be done. but i will try my best to figure out every things. anyway, i had made myself a fool in front of everyone again. maybe i had got used to it until that i had no feeling or reaction when someone was laughing about the stupid words i said, instead i laughed with them. cause if i don't laugh with them i seen odd among them and they will just said they just helping me by correcting me, then i had nothing to said.(if any of you don't understand then forget it, cause i don't know how to explain, all i can said it is not a nice feeling, the best it to shut up.) hais. i really hate it but i will just make myself a fool in front of everyone again, in the future, i should just listen to mr choo and keep quiet from now on.
my mood is really bad today. i just feel like crying and screaming every things out. i don't know what happened, today doesn't seen to be a good day to me.

was thinking about this, if we sway/move with the music i think we should we do it from the bottom of our heart and not for the sake of it. cause if all the movement was done just cause of the sake of it, every things look fake. so whatever things we need to do, we must do it from the bottom of your heart, if not it wont be perfect. anyway, as what i had said, it was my thoughts/feelings, so i dont need any comments or feed backs but i just feel like blogging it seen it my blog so i have the right to blog anythings.

i guess i had been tahaning for the last months and this month about some things. i really feel like telling that someone to find out what happening before doing anythings. before i really cry or scream, which i don't want to do. what the H*** is all this! maybe that person still think that he/she is right but i just feel like saying what i feel like. cause if i am wrong that person is in wrong too. now, i just feel like scolding all the bad words. before i turn crazy!

Labels: mood swing

i feeling very happy now! i don't know why too! suddenly just got this feeling. just watch finish my favorite show 《HANA KIMI》 cant wait for the next episode but it will be a week later. anyway, just did a quite funny thing, so crappy i guess. awhile ago, i sent a message to some people, informing them about the changes for tomorrow meeting and one of them(which is qinghua) reply me this : "Yes. Madam shinling. Yr wish is my command", " she is so crappy. ohmygosh. but is good to have such a funny friend around, cause she can just brighten my day with all her funniness. *laugh*

i still haven't do my review, i don't know how to start?! hope mr choo wont kill me! maybe i shall go think about it later. after blogging, going to turn off my com and start practicing guitar and making chocolate!

will be SUPER free next week, planned to go out but cause of throwing my wallet away with my ez-link in it so is very ma fan for me to go out and i going to stay at home the whole next week, i guess! but I DON'T WANT! ohmy! WHO CAN SAVE ME??? AAARRRGGHHH!!! the most stupidest thing i even done in my 14 year, 10 months and 12 days was to threw my wallet away! OHMYGOSH!!!

3days of going to sleep with a teary face

Labels: save me from my home

i fall in love with fei lun hai! love them like madness. in fei lun hai, wu zun is the one i like the most, he is a model! im so crazy of them. and i found out something. quite high about it but not going to tell any one. gonna watch yu le bai fen bai later, cause got fei lun hai. and going to keep on youtubing to find more video about fei lun hai. madness of the fei lun hai now!!!

played guitar just now. everytime will play until my leg numb. but i just cant stop playing. i can just sit there and play for 3 hours. if you love some things is really difficult for you to stop doing it. it just my love.

one more hour to my show. hopefully i can watch! but i think i can watch it on you tube too!
madness of the madness.

Labels: fei lun hai

i'm just bored so decided to blog. was youtubing just now but the logging of the video was too long until i sian so i give up. don't know what should i do now?! actually i got quite a number of things need to be done but i don't know where to start so until now i still haven't done any single thing!
List of things i need to do:

• write a review about the guitar competition(no dateline, but ASAP)
• pack my room(before 2007 come)
• make a video of SACGE(ask angelyn for dateline)
• do my holiday homework's(before 2007)
• practice guitar and master as many pieces as possible(by 27 Dec)
• help librarians with the SACGE mini library (ASAP, i guess)
• a reflection of 2006(before 2007)
• make my ez-link(before school start)

i think this is what i need to do for the time being. hmm... how should i start? i have no idea?! maybe i shall start with the review but my mind is blank now. hais. so irritating.

i feel like going out to have some fresh air. i feel so trouble now. i don't know why too. this feeling was with me seen the night before the guitar competition. i feel like going for some walk and let my mind take a rest for awhile. maybe just one day, go out and have some fun and don't think about anythings. hais. btw, anyone want to date me for christmas celebration. i feel like attending a party this year. anyway, i will be super free during the christmas week. i hate it can!maybe i shall put myself in coma for that whole week. (what a crazy thought, madness)

seen you had reject, i have nothings to say. i don't know whether the reason is true anot. but there is no need for you to be so jue qing. you making me suffering like hell. i know you wont bother about it but at least can you don't hurt me. let me get use with the times without you and let me prepare myself for studying under the same environment with you for don't know how long. cause it will be really impossible for me to stop think about it when i will be seeing you most of the time for the next 3 years. is really impossible. i hate you.(maybe is a waste for me to cry for you)

Labels: im to hurt to get hurt

came back from the competition. i almost fall asleep cause each piece last more than 10 mins cum i very tired.the winner was under mr choo expectation and i think the winner should win too, cause the way he played was different for others and i paid the most attention when he performing.i was stunned by some of the way they played and i find it quite cool too! there are more than one way of playing a guitar! =D

feeling very tired. seen long i had this feeling. is really very ma fan without a ez-link. want to go out but no ez-link then make me dont feel like going out liao. and i feel super weird without a wallet. which kind soul can buy a wallet for me for my christmas present, i would really love it! i need a wallet!!! anyway, i will be staying at home until wednesday. maybe i shall start packing my room and get ready for 2007!

i don't know whether you will reject anot but i really hope you wont if not i dont know how much tears i going to drop again. maybe, it shall be my last hope. cause wo zhen de hen tong ku. my depression come back again. i had been crying every night and lost my sleep every night again. cause of you i had been suffering, all i wish was, every things back like last time. i really miss it and miss you.

Labels: is it possible?

超喜欢你 (飞轮海)
心跳快得很可怕
呼吸大到有气压
手心冒汗可以浇花(可以浇花)
生活变四格漫画
喜怒哀乐被放大
身不由己没有办法(没有办法)

怎么可以这样
怎么可以这样疯狂
怎么可以这样
怎么可以这样爱超出了想像

就算世界与我为敌
我超喜欢你
超喜欢你不能分离
我只相信这个真理
百无禁忌万夫莫敌
我超喜欢你
我慢慢不能清醒
终于不想清醒
根本不用清醒这个恶作剧

想要对你说的话
身体由已替我表达
一旦爱了不能作假(不能作假)
一度觉得很头大
怀疑细胞有偏差
可是爱了没有办法(没有办法)

就是可以这样
就是可以这样疯狂
就是可以这样
就是可以这样爱超出了想像

就算世界与我为敌
我超喜欢你
超喜欢你不能分离
我只相信这个真理
百无禁忌万夫莫敌
我超喜欢你
我慢慢不能清醒
终于不想清醒
根本不用清醒这个恶作剧

我超喜欢你
是我放在心里好久的秘密
我不敢告诉你
甚至没有勇气说服我自己
我问一问上帝
要怎么突破我们之间的距离
站在原地是友谊
往前一步又怕吓到你
我号称黄金右脚横冲直撞
天下无敌自由来去
怎么踏进这个禁区
马上败在你手里

就算世界与我为敌
我超喜欢你 (超喜欢你)
超喜欢你不能分离
我只相信这个真理
百无禁忌万夫莫敌
我超喜欢你
我慢慢不能清醒
终于不想清醒
根本不用清醒这个恶作剧
就算世界与我为敌
我超喜欢你
超喜欢你不能分离
我只相信这个真理
百无禁忌万夫莫敌
我超喜欢你
我慢慢不能清醒
终于不想清醒
根本不用清醒这个恶作剧


this is one of the song of the show i saying yesterday. love this song lot!
ps:to any one who cant read the words, you need to put your cursor at the tagboard there then right click and select encoding then select unicode(UTF-8) and you can see the lyric. =D

drop tears yesterday night again after so long. was listening to song and brought out some memory. i guess i still cant get over it. i still don't believe all this is true. im really regret!

Labels: heart

i did a very STUPID thing that i feel like scolding myself. clear your eyes properly and read carefully, don't miss any single letter! the stupid me, went to throw away my OWN WALLET yesterday! if i threw it to my house dustbin i wont have such a big reaction, BUT i went to THROW in to the HDB BIG BIG DUSTBIN which i can NEVER GET BACK!!! cause the cleaner will come and clean the dustbin every early morning. my ez-link, money and GUITAR PICKS is inside okies!!! so hate myself now, cant believe i can do such a stupid thing. and i didn't even know until just now. OHMYGOSH! cause of losing one wallet, i lost so many things. i prefer losing my key(touchwood) then my wallet. i want my PICKS back! *cry*

was watching HANA KIMI on youtube the past few days but only got 3 episodes. but the show was nice. i was reading the comic last time and here come the show. i love the song too.
the show was about this girl named Rui Xi(Ella) having fallen "head over heels" for a boy named Zuo Yi Quan (Wu Zun) after seeing his high jump performance on television so she decides to find out all about him and go to the same school as him but the problem is it was an ALL BOYS SCHOOL! After much persuasion of her family and gaining the help of her good friend, Rui Xi then disguises herself as a boy and goes to the high school that Quan attends which was in JAPAN. Coincidentally, she is the same class and was also Quan's roommate! On her first day of school, she was late and bumped into someone on the way to class. In a hurry, she rushed off without apologizing. Much to her dismay, that guy was Quan. She wanted to be friends with Quan and was very straightforward about it but she get rejected (he thought she was gay, as she too straightforward). Liking that Rui Xi is rather straightforward, Jin Xiu Yi (Jiro Wang), the school soccer star, wanna be friends with Rui Xi.
During a P.E. lesson, everyone was shocked to discover that Rui Xi was a very fast runner, and she even break the school's record held by Xiu Yi. A jealous Xiu Yi challenges her to a soccer match. During the match, she faints (due to some reasons). Quan came to rescue her (and finds out that she is REALLY A GIRL but he keeps it to himself) and he brought her to the school's doctor, Mei Tian, who is a gay. which, finds out about Rui Xi's identity but promises to keep it a secret and he soon became her counselor. Xiu Yi soon falls in love with Rui Xi, but doesn't know that Rui Xi is a girl and believes that he, himself, is a gay.
Quan and Rui Xi soon become friends and begin to develop a very close friendship. Many mishaps and challenges happening and await for Rui Xi.....
this is somehow what the show was about i got it at one website and i edited and deleted a bit too. i know the show might be a bit gross cause got gays but it still a nice and funny show. is worth watching. im waiting for the CD to be out! and cause of this show, i begin to fall in love with fei lun hai, wu zun and keep on listen to tank's songs. i just love it! =D

watching guitar competition with angelyn, mr choo and amantha tomorrow. i guess it will be another open eyes for me. cant wait for it!

suddenly, i got this weird feeling in me. heard a lot of things this few days, and is all about relationship and i don't know why i seen to be very good in it. maybe i learn all this from TV?! it make me afraid to believe in a relationship, anyway im still young now. but relationship to me seen bad, although there were times fill with happiness and sweet stuff. but all the hurt that you experience in a relationship seen to be don't know how many time more than all the suffer and pain you had. so is relationship a harm or good?!

Labels: if you think mean your brain is working

in one sudden, i miss choir. the feeling of singing was very nice, and the best was to sing with a big group of people, so regretted that i quit choir when i in primary school. but anyway what happened is happen cant change any more.

cca break is killing me. i just rot at home every days.DATE me!if not i will really die! hmm...when cca resume again, i guess there will be a lot of works. and really hope i can change, so that mr choo wont lecture me more. when he called my name and said want to talk to me, i can sense some things bad and every times im right. then i will keep on recalled what did i do wrongly again. then feel like scolding myself of making all those mistakes when i know that i not suppose to do it. so idiot! some things i just didn't think carefully that why i will did some things wrong, then regret also no use. so really hope can make some changes when cca resume. another thing was, i try not to shout or make a lot of noise during cca from the 27th practice onward. although, i told to myself a lot of time but this time round i post it cause i really want to be change this problem.
when cca resume i really hope there will be improve. example, attendance, discipline etc. i wont wish that guitar will be 100% like band or what but at least know the basic of getting things done without the senior reminding all the times. know when the time to make noise, to keep quiet etc. i know some times i also made all this mistakes but when cca resume i really hope me and the ensemble can throw away all this bad habits. if as a ensemble our behaviour have improve and for us getting a gold for SYF wont be as difficult as what we thought but we also must practice our pieces.
anyway, in this 1 year there were already quite a big improvement. there are more people practice the pieces by themselves, big improvement for the weaker player(but you gals are no longer the weaker player). in term of speaking up more, i can see more from the seniors and some of the sec 1. you gals really did a good jobs, as what mr choo said, if we speak up more mean our brain is thinking(something like that). so well done! but there are still space for improvement. another thing was, good that there are people move/sway with the music. im really glad about it. anyway, guitar girls keep up the good works! =D

anyone got any activities need people help can call me! like help up for some thing or what. if not i will just dead bored at home so is better i help then rotting at home. anyway, going library later. going to borrow books that i haven't read it for more then 6 months. =D

sing a lot with the music

Labels: save me from my home

yesterday was the last practice.i cant imagine what will happen for my last practice, i think i will cry or something. i just miss cca so much. i just want to be with cca every moment, but in life there always time of separation.

cca yesterday was really sweet.we did SWAY. and the feeling was really good, beside moving as a ensemble, you can feel the music too. had a long lunch yesterday, thanks to kind-hearted mr choo for giving us such a long lunch break. so we head to long john for lunch but before that we played "you still the one" and i suppose to sing. i did sing but only ants can hear. cause i feel so weird to sing in front of people. lunch was crappy. i was making a fool out of myself. (somehow the same feeling as amantha) actually i don't like too. but i just did it without me knowing. so stupid! anyway i also don't know how to explain.

had dinner at sakae with mr choo, amantha, zee, angelyn, cherie and sherrill. then went to SCH with mr choo, amantha and zee. on the way, talked about some guitar stuff. then i felt a little cold at mr choo car, when i step in SCH i felt really cold again. thanks to angelyn and mr choo to lend me their jacket.when every one was here, then we head to the concert hall. the concert was nice. got this guy who played the electric guitar scared me. all i can said is he played like a lion.hmm...for the concert the movement that the ensemble made was very exaggerated, as what amantha said in her blog it seen like they did it for the sake of the performances. to me they didn't really move as in they can feel the music and understand it. but overall the concert was really nice, an open eyes for me! =D

cca break started, I'm so bored. but i brought guitar home to practice. so as least wont really rot at home.hopefully, by the practice on 27th i still can play properly as before or have improvement.guitar is my madness now.

this cca break was really a time for me to think back about my cca. thoughts fill all my heart, lot of feelings bursting in my heart. last time when i first join guitar i didn't expect myself to become a leader, to know TPJC people, to contribute somethings to cca, to be so committed to cca, to be so talkative, to be so playful and noisy. as i heard from my guitar teacher that last time i was quiet but now i very noisy. that was true. it just a stage of growing, i guess. being a part of this cca, let me thought, learn, understand and grow a lot. being a part of a student of my guitar teacher was a stage that i need to accept any negative points, any lecturing, any goods or bads. being a part of a leader of my cca, was really difficult for me until now. i can said i'm not even 60% a good leader yet. i didn't expect it to so tough until i can truly feel that being a leader was a huge responsible that you need to have. beside having all the leadership qualities, i also need to set a good example for my members to see, follow instruction, no talking back or playing a fool. i know i had made all this mistake a lot of times, i really trying my best to change all this. trying to know when is the right time to play, the right time to be serious. just that some times i will forget and here come my lecture. i think my guitar teacher lecture me more then my school teachers. but i guess, i show more of myself during cca time then school hours time. overall, cca brought me through one stage to another stage, one point to another point, one learning lesson to another learning lesson.

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back from Malaysia. ate alot of stuff and i feel so fat now. went to shop for a while but didn't get to buy anythings. BOOOOO!!! all we brought was foods and i was stunned about the service of one shop, it was DAMN good until i was stunned. anyway when to cca today after missing the yesterday one, and guess what it turn out quite badly cause we didn't play properly for the morning ensemble and mr choo was unhappy and it scared us. anyway, it just spoil my day. feel so down for cca and the stupid no mood feeling is bad again. although the after lunch ensemble was better but it still didn't brighten me, anyway i don't feel talking about it anymore. hmm... had committee meeting after cca, it was quite funny lar. but it still didn't brighten me. discuss some stuff but ended up everyone just went home without ending the meeting properly cause the meeting was long so everyone need to go, i guess.

anyway, cca tomorrow and it the last practice before cca break start. hopefully it will be a nice and happy last practice before the next time we come back again. I'm dying to miss cca. so it must end with a sweet practice, hopefully.hmm... niibori guitar concert tomorrow.hopefully i wont fall a sleep in between cause i will feel tired one but i think i wont cause i going to call amantha to talk to me if i sit beside her. anyway, i seen to cant wait for the concert.

cca break start, i going to pick up my books and study it. haven't really touch it for more than a month, so it time for me to do some studys before i die next year. hmm... anyway, i cant wait for my mum to give me money to shop for my new year clothes i already had in mind of what to buy. hehehe.

anyway, i was surprised that i dropped my tears today. maybe i cant stand anymore that why, cause i have been tahan-ing for quite a few weeks, so this time round i just let go every things is the best. actually i don't know what wrong me lar! suddenly, made people angry. hais. i trying already so please don't force me before i really burst out again or really turn to madness. i need some times. suddenly i feel so sian and tired.whatever i do it doesn't seen to be good but it will make people angry. hais.

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hopefully, there will be a combined camp with TPJC @ TPJC during march. and i said hopefully cause if the BOTH school's teachers or what dont agree then SAC and TPJC cant have a camp together. ohmygosh. please dont make it happen,God. im so excited for the camp, combining camp with TPJC might be the next lesson learn in music, leadership stuff and maybe more. i really cant wait for it. MARCH, i cant wait for you to come!

wont be in singapore for the next two days. I DONT WANT. cause it mean i will miss the cca on monday. ohmygosh. i HATE to miss cca, and why must be now, when my committed feeling toward cca was back. hmm...but i cant change the fact so i have to accept it. BOOOOO!

just read angelyn's blog, and she don't really like cca, yesterday. so i decided to write some things more about cca yesterday. actually i had totally different feeling as angelyn for cca yesterday. she doesn't really like the way that we sat when playing ensemble cause everyone wasn't really seating with their own section. actually the way we sit for ensemble was important too but i didn't really bother about it. cause i guess the feeling of finally finished learning one pieces that i hope i can finish learning it ASAP was done yesterday and learning some new, happy, lovely and nice pieces had fill all my heart. and i guess cause of this i LOVE CCA again. music is really some things i really cant stop loving it. i just cant help falling in love with it forever. music is my life. =D

loving of cca making me doesn't want to miss any time with it. =D

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im late for cca today! is some how i was too tired until i forget and i overslept. cause i thought today was a weekend. so i rushed to school by cab but i still late. so my punishment was to pack room after cca, but there wasnt really much things for me to pack. hehehe. cca, started of with new solo pieces. it was really nice, cause can really learn alot of nice pieces too. learnt black keys and greensleeves, and next target is to learn cant help falling in love. i heard that it is difficult but hope that i can learnt it well and played it well.then had lunch with mr choo, angelyn, cherie and sherrill, i was quite moody at that moment, i guess. then ensemble, sectional. and i can played yesterday as in the whole pieces! i love it man! overall, cca for today was wonderful, i love it and i guess the committed i had toward cca was back again. it was really good! =D

after cca, went to parkway with mr choo and amantha came to meet us to collect the niibori guitar concert tickets. cause we waited for quite long and we was hungry so we had our dinner at BK! hahaha. and me and amantha had couples meal. hahaha. and we went to hide mr choo's kitkat, at first we just planned to give him on monday but in the end cause he was a POLICE MAN and he found out. hahaha. cause we keep on laughing about a lot of stuffs until i cant stop and he went to RECORD how long i laughed! -_-" the record was 1 MINS 40 SEC then later was amantha turn and guess what the record was 2 MINS and 10 SEC. it break my record!hahaha. then i said mr choo was the SKINNER man i even seen and mr choo started to laugh and we wanted to record but in the end we was too slow, when we wanted to record he already stop laughing. hahaha. before we had our dinner we went to one guitar shop. it was really nice. and when we went back to for the second times mr choo scared the ladyboss. hahaha. and me, amantha and the ladyboss started laughing when mr choo look blur and was asking what happened. then we was talking about him when he was in the toilet.hahaha. and when mr choo was looking at the music books, thinking of the music, trying to conduct(i guess). he totally CONCENTRATING. cause when we talking to him, he totally IGNORE us. but it was good to know such person to be so engross to music. =D

today was really fun! laughed a lot and i guessed i had understand mr choo more too. and i really cant get over the word madness too! ohmygosh! hahaha.

i feel like having guitar exam again!? madness!!!

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