is stressful.
today is a bad days, im holding my tears.
cca, didnt get to play during ensemble cause i wan practising my exam pieces, i dont feel like writing more about it. i heard that bass wasnt very good, so extra practise for bass is CONFIRM. thursday going back to school.
i dont feel like commenting about cca, cause i missed alot of things today.
suddenly, i feel so stressful, it make me out of breath. all the stuff is going to make me die. my head is very pain now! haiz.
things was out of my ways today. everythings is wrong. i very frustrated. i dont feel like using my brain cells anymore, but if not the problems will not be solve. can someone just kill me or what. life is getting more and more difficult. i thought this holidays suppose to for me to relax but it end up making my life so bloody complicated.
dont have any high expectation from me anymore, i really want to try to meet the expectation.but the more i try, the more i cant reach. even im so disappointed with myself so as well as any of you. maybe im not a good leader anymore. im reconsidering, am i still a good leader, maybe once im, but now maybe im not?!
RECONSIDERING.
in the end i still dont have the courage
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