26 oct: worst day of my life
result. at first i didnt try to make myself remember it. but when the time that we getting back the result, i getting more and more scared. I HATE IT!!! although i got into the best class, with some of my friends but seeing one of my another friend got to a class she hate plus only herself not with her friends. i really feel like joining her or what so ever. seeing all my friend cry was really bad, and seeing them cry when you cant do anythings to help them is totally like a useless feeling. WTH!!! why must this happened to us? i cant get use to it that from next year onward, that friend that girl that alicia who standing behind me wont be her but will be someone i hate i dont like!!! life is getting more and more meaningless.
result: 1A, 2Bs, 6Cs and 1U-grade.
i also get to take o level math and chinese in the year 2008 which mean for the next two year i get to study express math and chinese. and i had accepted both. i dont know will i get stress up or can i cope anot!? i dont know the decision is correct or wrong?! my life is suddenly so corrupted!!! why must i get spilt up with my friends? getting into a best class is not a good thing too................
27 oct: it wont be the last but the first
went to bowling today. and half of my nail broke. cause too long. hehehe. enjoy it!!! althought i didnt join in the fun and play with them but seeing them play it still really nice. knowing that they are still enjoying themselve is more then enough. although we get to spilt up but it doesnt mean we cant go out together, have lunch together, say hello in school or what so ever. we will still be friend.
feel like doing somethings for them, actually everyone of them is really very important to me.
28 oct: still wanna play
i realise my parent seem to dont care me anymore, they didnt even see my report book until i put it infront of them. are they that busy until they cant sign the form or take a look at my result or even ask me things that concern my school stuff. they will just everydays ask me what time coming back from school, scold me for going out when i already didnt really go out or scold me for going back to school when is holiday and saying that cca is not important but my result. but cca is just like another part of my life, without it my life will be incomplete. and not it already incomplete cause of the separating with friends.
why parents always want their child to understand them or the way they teach us but why cant they understand us or know what we need, what we like and what we dont like???
my study start again. cause of the class i going next year and the subject i taking, everyone is telling me not to play anymore, is time to study. but now is holiday. why must my life only be study study and study???
is this gonna be a test???
but its a bit too long, cause is 3 years!!!
Labels: take it or run away from it???
