dont understand.
didnt post the last two day cause i was busy and didnt get the chance to post.
19 oct 2006:getting futher away.
stay at primary hall the whole day to check paper.i pass everythings except literature.but i still not happy with my result, all quite low.my works is once again bad.during break, played hopsctoch(forget how to spell), have a fun time playing it, as it brought back a lot sweet memory when i still in primary school.in primary school, we have nothing much to bother and all we do is play play play, but now got some many things for us to trouble and we cant play anymore.SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE S***!!!
after school, went back to canteen with alicia, niying and mayvelle to so call slack and wait for the time to pass.but then alicia ass started to get itchy, very funny cause somethings funny happened.and it made us keep on laughing.hahahahaha.
20 oct 2006:too far until i cant reach you.
pet rocket!didnt enjoy the process that we were making the rocket but the time when we need to fire the rocket, cause can get wet. at first i didnt fire, but after seeing mayvelle and niying fire until so fun, i feel like trying too. so i fire niying's group one, and yes! i got wet but after a while i back to dry again, so when at the hall, niying and alicia use their bottle spray at me but didnt get very wet and i not sick too. i wanna get sick!!!
cca, have a lot of thought burst out in my mind one sudden.
i quite unhappy, i know people dont really feel like playing or people were late.but if we keep on carry this attitude then what cant we achieve?sometime me, myself also dont feel like playing, but when i think of, when playing with the ensemble and if i can play properly and nicely, i will be really happy and whatever hardship i had put, i have get it back by enjoying myself while playing with the ensemble.wont it worth it?and as a leader, we shouldnt show our slacken side to the ensemble or join in the fun with them, we should call them stop talking and play. and when we call them to play, they will give us their black face or attitude, and this is not what the leader want. to call the rest of them to play and not talk or what, is what we dont like too. but we have no choice as this is part of our job too. please spare a thought.sometime i really feel like dont bother the whole things anymore, is so tiring.
almost spend everytime with them,
but we are getting more and more far away.
i dont know what happenend.
but the whole damn things seem to affect my whole mood.
i hate it.
i dont want to end the whole thing like that.
i really dont want.
we are not back to normalLabels: is so tiring.
