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Tuesday, October 31, 2006;2:45 PM

finishing watching GOONG!!!

i cried like donno what for the last two episode.

so sad and touching and of course FUNNY!!!!

LOVE IT TO BITS!!!

going to watch it again!!! (:

so confuse now, my heart suddenly got so many feeling bursting out!!!Suffocating!!!

this not going to work. i totally feel like dying. im escaping.im afraid.

no one is there now, not you or even you. is this all hopeless???

i donno what happen?i cant communicate with u.im so scare of you now.in one sudden, we are so far apart until i donno whether you are still there?until i cant feel any sense of you there.what wrong??is the promise going to gone useless? or im just too sensitive. i dont dare to get near you.is just like the old feeling that we use to having during all the pass few holiday. i thought this time round it going to change, but it seem like, it going to be same. i guess, we will never meet the promise or you going to prove me wrong???

it is you that i.........

Labels: friendship

enjoy

Monday, October 30, 2006;4:15 PM

this few day, keep on getting tired very easily.

went to meet mayvelle and niying at around 12.

first stop: burger king. niying brought 3 large fries and eat with mayvelle.after eating go popular to find book. then i went home to take ez-link card while they go arcade and play.after meeting them go challenger to find stuff. then after that head to TM and go popular again to find books. and of course arcade again!!!play play play. oh! i saw sindy and petrina. hahaha. then we walk around, go mini toons, long john blah blah blah. quite fun. oh! mayvelle way of calling aunty is funny. make me and niying laugh. hahaha. then we keep on giving each other electrical shock. so funny and painful. hahaha.enjoy myself today. thanks to niying and mayvelle. (:

so piss by someone now. ARGH!!!watching goong soon again. and now watching the second last episode i guess. damn nice. so sad and lovely too. love the show! it just rock!!!!

have some thoughts:

never give up somethings cause of one small little problem.try to overcome it. plus, there will always be problems in your life that you need to face and not escape from it and people go through all this problems in order to grow as they had learnt somethings from it. *think about it.

happiness is what everyone chasing for

and sadness is what everyone want to kick away,

but it seem that sadness always revolve around people.

Labels: is you. who are you looking? i said is YOU.

finding jobs

Sunday, October 29, 2006;1:47 PM

finding a job soon.

suprisingly my mother allow me to work.

got alot of things need to buy.

hopefully i can really find a job.

then i will be quite busy,

cause at the same time need to prepare for exam.

hope i can cope with everythings,

and work it out well.

short message to my good friends, let me start with alicia. hahahha.

alicia: different class. but never mind. u need to study 24 hours per day to get ur ass up to 3/4 no matter what. and i will wait for the day that the girl who standing behind me will be you again. so good to have u as my friend for the past two years.thanks.we will be friends until the day i die.

niying: same class. donno is it good or bad. but hope is good. hahaha. anyway, ur fishy here. will everydays come and bother you so get ur ears ready. hahaha. oh!tennis, all the best in it. still remember what i tell u? if u forget, i going to pump u to the sun and then u will "caoda" muhahaha. so fun to have u as my friend.

mayvelle:U!!! work hard. like alicia study ur ass off to 3/4. hahaha. oh. i realise i dont really understand u well maybe one day i should try to understand u. find job!!! hope we can get a job. really need it. so yah. anyway, luck luck, especially in ur LOVE. hahahahaha.

danielle: u can be really crazy sometimes. hahaha. this is what i just realise. hahaha.hopefully, our next year prefect life will be much better than this year. hehehe. anyways...yah. luck for next year. and i just realise we are doing most of the things together. hahahaha.

really gonna miss my friends lot.

they are just one part of my life.

friends is somethings to treasure.

once u loss it, it is very difficult to get it back.

and friendship will be never-ending.

loss once and learn to treasure it billion times of it.

Labels: is this good or bad?

friendship

Saturday, October 28, 2006;9:12 AM

26 oct: worst day of my life

result. at first i didnt try to make myself remember it. but when the time that we getting back the result, i getting more and more scared. I HATE IT!!! although i got into the best class, with some of my friends but seeing one of my another friend got to a class she hate plus only herself not with her friends. i really feel like joining her or what so ever. seeing all my friend cry was really bad, and seeing them cry when you cant do anythings to help them is totally like a useless feeling. WTH!!! why must this happened to us? i cant get use to it that from next year onward, that friend that girl that alicia who standing behind me wont be her but will be someone i hate i dont like!!! life is getting more and more meaningless.

result: 1A, 2Bs, 6Cs and 1U-grade.

i also get to take o level math and chinese in the year 2008 which mean for the next two year i get to study express math and chinese. and i had accepted both. i dont know will i get stress up or can i cope anot!? i dont know the decision is correct or wrong?! my life is suddenly so corrupted!!! why must i get spilt up with my friends? getting into a best class is not a good thing too................

27 oct: it wont be the last but the first

went to bowling today. and half of my nail broke. cause too long. hehehe. enjoy it!!! althought i didnt join in the fun and play with them but seeing them play it still really nice. knowing that they are still enjoying themselve is more then enough. although we get to spilt up but it doesnt mean we cant go out together, have lunch together, say hello in school or what so ever. we will still be friend.

feel like doing somethings for them, actually everyone of them is really very important to me.

28 oct: still wanna play

i realise my parent seem to dont care me anymore, they didnt even see my report book until i put it infront of them. are they that busy until they cant sign the form or take a look at my result or even ask me things that concern my school stuff. they will just everydays ask me what time coming back from school, scold me for going out when i already didnt really go out or scold me for going back to school when is holiday and saying that cca is not important but my result. but cca is just like another part of my life, without it my life will be incomplete. and not it already incomplete cause of the separating with friends.

why parents always want their child to understand them or the way they teach us but why cant they understand us or know what we need, what we like and what we dont like???

my study start again. cause of the class i going next year and the subject i taking, everyone is telling me not to play anymore, is time to study. but now is holiday. why must my life only be study study and study???

is this gonna be a test???

but its a bit too long, cause is 3 years!!!

Labels: take it or run away from it???

dont know who am i

Wednesday, October 25, 2006;8:40 PM

i hardly can update this whole week, but i try.

cca, wasnt as excited as before.i guess.but i getting more and more restless.maybe is just me but not the rest. cca schedule out! was quite piss with the responses, cause is really what i dont want to hear from the people and the leaders.but nothing is perfect.so i have to accept it, as what angelyn and mr choo had said, if everythings turn out your way, you wont have any challenges in your life. but still quite sad. my section, im HAPPY. petrina, ethel, rachel thong, olivia and cherie, BIG improvement. im really glad about it! at first, i was still worrying but now seeing you all had meet to the point that i set for you all,although we are still quite slow but without me nagging much. im really very HAPPY.

thanks. :D

quite excited, cause not wearing school uniform to school tomorrow, wear jean fold to 3/4, black polo tee and pump shoe! yeah!!! hahahha. quite happy about it. cause dont need to wear school uniform!!!! hahahaha.

my wallet was totally wet!!!ohmygosh!!!feel like crying now. and my temperature is running high now!!! caught in the rain twice today. sickness.

my heart sank all by you.

Labels: one day i die....

emotional

Monday, October 23, 2006;8:59 PM

damn emo. today!

one moment happy, one moment sad.

what wrong with me???

cca today, no comment.

i love the time in drama room. i enjoy myself alot with THEM!!!

THEY simply rock my life!!!

another sweet sweet memory added in my heart.

it happened that i feel like i have nothing to worry and just enjoy myself with THEM around.

thanks to alicia and niying, anyway.

THANKS CHERIE!!! for putting in all the strings for me!!!

THANKS MR CHOO for helping me to tune my guitar and tolerate with my stupid behavior.

(ps:but i really didnt say the S....... thingy. really!)

this moment there will be someone entering your life

at the next moment there will be someone leaving you.

but i really hope you wont leave my life.

treasure the people around you before you regret.

cause im regretting now.

Labels: the moment you leave my heart stop.

my eyes is crying.

Saturday, October 21, 2006;9:24 PM

my grandfather is in hospital.

quite worry about it, hope the bad thing want happen.

haish.....

why this few days so many bad things happened.

why can it just stop...

maybe i should let it go,

but i really dont want.

cause my heart dont want

i dont want to end it so fast and end it this way.

why?you will always never know/understand how i feel.

all cause of you and it.

Labels: i dont want things to get worst.

dont understand.

;8:17 AM

didnt post the last two day cause i was busy and didnt get the chance to post.

19 oct 2006:getting futher away.

stay at primary hall the whole day to check paper.i pass everythings except literature.but i still not happy with my result, all quite low.my works is once again bad.during break, played hopsctoch(forget how to spell), have a fun time playing it, as it brought back a lot sweet memory when i still in primary school.in primary school, we have nothing much to bother and all we do is play play play, but now got some many things for us to trouble and we cant play anymore.SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE S***!!!

after school, went back to canteen with alicia, niying and mayvelle to so call slack and wait for the time to pass.but then alicia ass started to get itchy, very funny cause somethings funny happened.and it made us keep on laughing.hahahahaha.

20 oct 2006:too far until i cant reach you.

pet rocket!didnt enjoy the process that we were making the rocket but the time when we need to fire the rocket, cause can get wet. at first i didnt fire, but after seeing mayvelle and niying fire until so fun, i feel like trying too. so i fire niying's group one, and yes! i got wet but after a while i back to dry again, so when at the hall, niying and alicia use their bottle spray at me but didnt get very wet and i not sick too. i wanna get sick!!!

cca, have a lot of thought burst out in my mind one sudden.

i quite unhappy, i know people dont really feel like playing or people were late.but if we keep on carry this attitude then what cant we achieve?sometime me, myself also dont feel like playing, but when i think of, when playing with the ensemble and if i can play properly and nicely, i will be really happy and whatever hardship i had put, i have get it back by enjoying myself while playing with the ensemble.wont it worth it?and as a leader, we shouldnt show our slacken side to the ensemble or join in the fun with them, we should call them stop talking and play. and when we call them to play, they will give us their black face or attitude, and this is not what the leader want. to call the rest of them to play and not talk or what, is what we dont like too. but we have no choice as this is part of our job too. please spare a thought.sometime i really feel like dont bother the whole things anymore, is so tiring.

almost spend everytime with them,
but we are getting more and more far away.
i dont know what happenend.
but the whole damn things seem to affect my whole mood.
i hate it.
i dont want to end the whole thing like that.
i really dont want.

we are not back to normal

Labels: is so tiring.

what should/can i do now?

Wednesday, October 18, 2006;9:11 PM

my head is so heavy now.

feel damn pain now.

feeling my whole body damn pain and heavy.

like i dying soon.

the tears...

almost cry in school.

cause i almost lost my wallet.

but cause of some people.

and make me so embarrassed.

not going to say some more.

roller blading is FUN!!!

i somehow enjoy it.

my instructor, name wilson[shld be this spelling].

he is nice and funny.

and we somehow bully him.

hahahahaha.

thanks to his guide i can at least roller blade abit.

didnt expect that i can enjoy roller blading.

OH!!!i didnt fall down while roller blading!!!

thanks goodness.

and thanks to the instuctor. hahahahaha.

cca, i somehow enjoy it.

have alot of fun with bass.

we play play play.

but not action play or what but play guitar.

hahahahahaha.

then i somehow conduct while playing my guitar too.

enjoy it.

the people is lovely today.

and need to THANKS CHERIE!!!!!

if not the bass wont stay in mpr and enjoying air-con.

OH!!!!!i like brain-wash.

i totally forget how to play Gavotte.

so depressing. wanna learn it ASAP!!!who can teach me??

trying to bring back the memorise in my mind.

Labels: i gonna suffer cause of you.

old stuff; memorise.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006;8:38 PM

i miss the times.

i miss the past.

i miss the fun.

i miss _ _ _.

i MISS EVERYTHINGS!!!

went to downtown east this late morning.

went there to acompany people.

then i also can clear my mind abit.

need a walk.

i my so restless.

need to think alot and get things done.

haish.feel so trouble.

whole afternoon spent my time watching princess hours

is damn nice.

i love it LOT!!!

chat with angelyn just now.

she said somethings funny.

is suppose to be out of stock.

and she said out of stuck.

hahahahaha.

oh! i am suppose to blog about her chinese too.

her chinese have improve! *clap*

so next time can give her chinese test,

and she surely can pass.hahahahaha.

saw a lot of "old" photo.

really miss it.

bring back alot of memory.

memory is the BEST!!!

Labels: sweet times.

restless.tired.stress.depress.sad.

Monday, October 16, 2006;9:05 PM

BAD DAY!!!

today is the WORST day i ever had.

i cant get use to everythings.

i cant get use of no more proper school.

i cant get use to cca resume.

i cant get use of my life without ***.

i cant GET USE AT ALL!!!

who can save me out of this world?

i feeling so difficult now.

i really need.............

school suck today.

it turn out worst than what i expected.

i just HATE TODAY!!!

cca, okies.

get to know the SYF sections.

im in CONTRA BASS!!! i think this is what i want, i guess.

im happy with it. but just that i want to try playing with it.

but now i still using the prime guitar, i want use the bass guitar.

is like so big and heavy.

but i think okies lar.

i can use it to hit ppl. hahaha. joking.

i feel like crying everythings out!!!

is like too much for me.

im forcing myself to be normal.

but when the day end, i feeling so tired.

i have no energy to fight back.

and people come and irritate me.

i dont want.

can they think before what they say.

cause is really very hurting!!!

how am i going to face the rest of the days for the week.

who can tell me?

crying cant help me out of the miserable life.

Labels: im lost without you.

LALALA!!!BOO!!!

Sunday, October 15, 2006;9:17 PM

BOO!!!hahaha!!!

I CUT MY HAIR!!!

love it to BIT!!!

still can tie, but i dont feel like tying.

quite happy with it. hehehe.

cca tomorrow. :l

i need my mood BACK!!!

OH MY!!!

i cant wait for the coming week to over.

but i a bit mad!!!

cause the week haven't come and i want it to over.

this show how i dislike the week.

my GOODNESS!!!!

SAVE ME!!!

feel so depress now.

donno what happened?

got a feeling that.......

im very scared now.

my mind is very confuse now.

feeling very messes!!!

feeling so out of breath!!!

turning mad!!!

Labels: i need ***.

gonna miss u.

Saturday, October 14, 2006;4:37 PM

slack at home.

and keep on thinking of ......

cant get it out of my mind.

i dont want to go school on monday.

things happening on monday,

doesnt make me feel like going to school.

i cant find my cca mood back.

knowing need to stay back until so late, i already sian.

and knowing that i will play until very lousy on monday,

i really dont feel like going to cca.

and also knowing that i cant spend my time with .............

monday is going to be a BAD DAY!!!

i hate it!!!

monday just suck me life.

thinking of...... every second.

Labels: nothing can cheer me up beside......

want it to last forever.

Friday, October 13, 2006;8:36 PM

yesterday: 12 oct 2006

didnt get to finish my DnT paper.

and i going to fail the paper.

WTH!!!

after paper stay back for literature and some briefing.

literature was okies, cause we didnt act the whole thing out.

then after that went to bugis with pink pig, emo giant, cock and princess.

and we took neo-print.

i just suck in it.

is like SOOOOO LONG never take, i cant smile.

so from now on, i not going to take neo-print. so gay!!!

then we walk here walk there, buy here buy there then go home.

have a nice sleep yesterday, but i forget to do something!

and when i realise i started to scold myself stupid.

cause how can i fall a sleep when i haven't do the thing.

so damn angry with myself.

but now it over.....so never mind.

today: 13 oct 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NIYING

(ps to niying:my second time wishing you!!!)

and she now probably enjoy her jap. food or enjoying her life now.

meet alicia and mayvelle at white sand,

and get some stuff then go niying's house.

after that play tennis.

and i REALLY SUCK IN IT!!!

i dont like!!!

maybe next time, if i can, i should have training outside.

cause i cant play properly, make me damn angry with myself.

i like never good in sport. ARGH!!!

went back to niying's house after playing.

and we started to have a cake fight!!!

somemore is like not my birthday,

they put the cake on my face.

made me smell like cake.

i HATE the smell, somemore is the SECOND TIMES!!!

then we eat, sleep, watch tv.

we like enjoying ourselves like no body business.

DAMN FUN!!!

EXAM IS FINALLY OVER!!!

and the things that i need to do is mostly all related to guitar.

so now need to concentrate on guitar.

cause is like 1 month plus to exam and im not prepare for it.

damn scare now!!! really scare that i will fail.

im NOT CONFIDENT TO IT AT ALL!!! how???

i think if i fail or didnt reach the standard i want, i will surely ***.

so damn angry with myself.

i just bad in everthings! ARGH!!!

i just want all this to last forever.............

47 days to guitar exams!!!

Labels: i just lie to myself everythings cause im too scare to **** _ _ _.

being SA-BO.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006;9:06 PM

1)how old did you wish you were?
prefect 100.
2) where were you when 911 happened?
hehehe...i cant remember anythings.
3) what do you do when the vending machine steals your money?
first:press the button,second:hit the machine and third:i will say:"the stupid vending machince cheap my money. hahaha.
4) do you count yourself kind?
sometime, i think. i dont know.
5) if you had to get a tatoo, where would it be?
my back.
6) if you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Japanese/Malay/???
7) do you know your neighbours?
nope.
8) what do you consider a vacation?
going to a country i like and enjoying myself with no worrys.
9) do you follow your horoscope?
most of the time. hehehe.
10) would you move for the person you love?
yes, normally i will do anythings for the person i love.
11) are you touchy feely?
YES!!!VERY!!!hahaha.
12) do you believe that opposites attract?
sometime, depend.
13) dream job?
somethings related to music(eg. DJ or music teacher.....)/ photographer/designer(but im bad in drawing).
14) favorite channels?
channel U and 8 & channels that show taiwan show and mtv.
15) favorite place to go on weekends?
a place for me to relax.
16) showers or baths?
i love both! (:
17) do you paint your nails?
yes, but for now cant, cause got school.
18) do you trust people easily?
no!except 3 persons.
19) what are your phobias?
bitter stuffs, somethings that coming to my direction very fast, my mother screaming, swimming and skating.
20) do you want kids?
depend. but i only like kids that between 1-3 years-old.
21) do you keep a handwritten journal?
once before.
22) where would you rather be right now?
sleeping and dreaming about someone. hahaha.
23) who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
that person, i guess.
24) heavy or light sleeper?
light most of the time.
25) are you paranoid?
no!
26) are you impatient?
half half.
27) who can you relate to?
the person i am thinking in my mind now!?
28) how do you feel about interracial couples?
???
29) have you been burned by love?
yes.no.yes.
30) what's your favorite pick-up line?
"idiot u!","Smash you Left Right Center Up Down!", "watever"!.
31) what's your main ringtone on your mobile?
songs!
32) what were you doing at midnight last night?
studying for SCIENCE and that why im lacking for sleep now!):
33) what did the last text on your cellphone say?
"i saw already, aiya. can block the ****** frm _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ur **** mah. Go _ _ _ _ and do. Haha." sent by angelyn.
34) whose bed did you sleep in last night?
no one, cause i didnt sleep last night.
35) what color shirt are you wearing?
light- pink.
36) most recent movie you watched?
take the lead! IT ROCK!!!.
37) name three things you have on you at all times..
handphone,clothes,hair clip.
38) what color are your bedsheets?
pink with some white pattern.
39) how much cash do you have on you right now?
donno. cause i donno where did i put my money. hehehe.
40) what is your favorite part of the chicken?
none. i prefer sea foods or chocolate or ice-cream. hahaha.
41) what's your favorite town/city?
xi men ding and taipei and KL.
42) i cant wait till...?
knowing my result, concert and SYF.
43) what did you have for dinner last night?
cant remember. hehehe.
44) do you own a gun?
nope. i dont like gun. hehehe.
45) what do you prefer to drink in the morning?
hot-chocolate drink.
46) where do you think you'll be in 10 years time?
donno. maybe i will die in the next 5 years? hahaha.
47) last thing you ate?
fishcake.
48) what songs do you sing in the toilet?
none.
49) last thing that made you laugh?
when msging with niying. i guess?
50) worst injury you've ever had?
cant remember cause it seem long from the last time i injure myself.
51) does someone have a crush on you?
if you REALLY REALLY want to know the answer then ask that someone.
52) what's your favorite candy?
ALOT!!!!!
53) what song do you want to play at your funeral?
ask alicia cause she in-charge of my funeral.
54) four random people to do this:
ANGELYN,ALICIA,NIYING,MAYVELLE.
*your names appear in my mind when i saw this question. hehehe. sorry. but please do. (:

Labels: SA-BOing post.

Science Paper.

;8:45 PM

I DIDNT SLEEP LAST NIGHT!!!!!!!

and today, i want to sleep but i cant sleep!!!

the paper was half difficult, half okies.

so BLESS ME.

finish the paper in 45mins.

wanted to sleep/rest one.

but i dont know why, i cant.

then when come back home i also only sleep for two hours.

i am lack of sleep now.*yawn*

tomorrow gonna stay back after DnT paper.

cause of Literature.

is like the THIRD time i bring the clothes to school.

and this time round i finally can use it.

after the literature, should be most pro. going out.

i like not excited of it, and neither am i excited that exam is over.

going to post the second time cause of something.

and i can SA-BO people to do it!

but i was thinking who can i SA-BO?

i feel really save with you around.

Labels: no worry when the time with you.

PRINCESS HOURS!!!

Tuesday, October 10, 2006;1:19 PM

PRINCESS HOURS ROCK!!!

just finishing watching the first two episode.

so nice and funny.

i am addicted to it now.

hahahahaha.

i like the Great Queen character, it seem to be a nice and funny person.

and i dont like the Queen cause she seem to be evil.

of course the main characters are all pretty/handsome and cute.

i am mad of the show now!!! hahahahaha.

gonna study now then take my nap.

and i not going to online tonight.

wanna concentrate on science.

cause i don't want to fail

but there like a high chance that i will fail.

MY GOODNESS!

lalala. yapness; highness; craziness. yupee.

Labels: back to the right track???

Math Papers.

Monday, October 09, 2006;7:56 PM

paper 1 was headache.

need to think a lot.

and need to fight with the time.

so i lost 13 marks!!!

cant finish the paper in time.

damn sad!

but thanks god!!!

paper 2 was piece of cake.

know how to do 95% of the paper.

other 5% was on graph. donno how to do.

hopefully my aim of getting a A is still possible.

luck luck for me and you people out there too.

study day tomorrow.

and i have no idea of how to study my science.

so i like confirm will fail.

the only chapter that i good in, is the chapter on light.

just hope that the paper will mainly focus on light.

every moment thinking of you,

every moment day-dreaming of you.

every moment **** you.

Corrupted.

Sunday, October 08, 2006;7:47 PM

is a SUNDAY!>.<"

went to starbuck and study with my sis.

hohoho!got to drink my fav. drink. i miss it!!!

took around 2hours to just finish one exercise of maths.

cause while doing, i was day-dreaming, stoning,

plus looking at the way on how the people in the starbuck make the drink.

i was attracted at it. hehehehehe.

tomorrow math papers!

aim to get a A.

but i dont think i can lor.

so try my best.

hope i wont make any careless mistake and can finish the papers in time.

cause most of the time i will make mistake in exam papers,

or either i wont make mistake but cant finish the paper in time.

so PRAY FOR ME!!! hahahahaha

the sky is clear but my heart is still moody

Labels: my most horrible days

what can i do now?

Saturday, October 07, 2006;10:54 AM

gonna stay at home the whole day.
plan to study the reminding 3 subject.
but until now i still cant study.
i hate the feeling now.
it totally s*** my life.

icantgetuoutofmymind
islikesodifficult
themoreidontwanttothinkaboutyou
themoremymindwillthinkaboutyou
canutellmewhatcanidonow.
ijustfeellikejumpoffthebuilding
sothatmymindwonthaveyou
idoallsortofthingstotrynottothinkaboutyou
endupistillfail
iknowudonbotherme
butiamtoostupid
causeeventhoughiknowtheendingistheonethatidontwant
butistillcantcontrolandllafnievolhtiwuoy
iguessireallyneedtostopeverythingsrightnow
althoughmyheartreallydontwant
eventhoughiknowiwillgethurtmoreifidontstopnow
uoyhtiwebotsitnawilla...

i had made a stupid mistake but i know i forever wont regret.

Labels: too difficult for me.

Literature Paper

Friday, October 06, 2006;10:56 PM

PRAY FOR ME!!!

hope i can pass this paper,

cause i dont really write long for section B.

donno what to write.

but the first question of section A, i wrote one whole page.

for the second quesiton of section A, i only wrote 1/4.

so i like going to die young!!!

now is like a rest.

cause here come WEEK END!!!

but still need to study.

went to alicia's house after school to "study".

and i didnt study at all.

dont have the mood and cant concentrate at all.

so end up i eat eat eat.

ate alot today!

and is really ALOT!!!

somethings went wrong again.

tomorrow not going to eat, if not i going to become a pig!!!

at alicia's house saw alicia's pictures when she was small.

and she so PRETTY!!!

is like a chio-bu!!!

if she now also look like the picture,

i bet alot of guys will fall in love with her.

but to bad she not. hahahahahaha.joking.

she really DAMN PRETTY.

until now, i still cant believe.

but she really PRETTY at THAT TIME.

hahahahahahaha. have a great time at alicia's house.

and thanks alicia,

cause she helped me do alot of things when i at her house

and had meet her promise to make things back to normal with ***.

alicia, I "LOVE" you. hahahahaha.

everything is happening too fast until i cant take it.

i really dont want this to happen.

but if things doesnt turn up this way,

_ _ _ wont be happy, and i wont be happy.

but for now, at least _ _ _ is happy.

i really dont know what to do now.

my heart is so pain,

the bleeding is just to make me feel better.

but my heart is still very hurt.

i dont want this ending.

do you know i really **** _ _ _ lot

and **** _ _ _ too deep.

i guess i am nothing in your heart.

there are too many things and people surrounding _ _ _.

and i dont know how to get to know _ _ _.

i had lost the communication with _ _ _, which i really hate it.

i am really lost now!!!

the day you leave me is the die i day.

Labels: your smile your happiness is my everything.

History Paper.

Thursday, October 05, 2006;8:48 PM

HAND PAIN!

wanted to stop writing when i was doing the SBQ.

but cause i dont want to die young, so i have to complete the whole paper.

the paper was okies.

but just hope that the answers that i wrote wasnt all rubbish.

my hand was red when i writing, then my wrist was like very pain!!!

and tomorrow need to write long long for literature too!

my hand need a lot of exercise!>.<"

help mr choo do something just now.

which need the help of angelyn, sherrill and cherie.

when i was trying to call angelyn, she didnt pick up my phone.

so i decide to ask sherrill for help,

then i shun bian asked sherrill, whether she know why angelyn never pick up the phone

and she told me that angelyn maybe in her dreamland (sleeping)

but after putting down the phone with sherrill,

angelyn called me!

and she told me that she was SLEPPING, that why she never pick up the phone,

she also added that she did heard the phone rang but just that she lazy to go pick up.

angelyn really a sleeping pig. hahahahahhaha.

and sherrill will be the fortune-teller. hahahahahhaha.

lastly, of course my and cherie shall be the normal child. hahahahhahaha.

i was trying to be lame. but really very funny!

somethings well wrong, i guess.

i think the best thing for now is for me to die.

i really feel like dying now!.

Labels: can everything become better instead of worst?

Geography paper.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006;2:03 PM

the geograpy was okies.

some question was easy, some was okies, some was difficult.

hope at least i can get a B.

but the chance is like very small.

cause i leave some blank and my hardwriting suck!

hope the teacher who is making my paper will know what i am writing,

cause at last section of the paper,

i was rushing to finish the paper.

as there was very little time left.

but lucky i still finish.

now is to study for history!!!

not going to online tonight.

cause i want to study for history as i want to score well in this paper.

but i think is impossible.

but i will still try my best.

good luck to me and good luck to people who is having exams tomorrow.

went around to find stuff,

but i dont know get what thing for a person,

thinking to get somethings but scared later that person dont like.

and i realise i really bad in getting present for people,

so people who received my present before must by really honor.

hahahahaha.

the time with you is going to be my happiest moment in my life.

Labels: the heart bleed, the tears drop and the cut become deeper

Chinese Papers.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006;8:21 PM

i had fully utilize my time today, for my papers.

but early morning, i realise i forget to bring my dictionary!

but thanks to JOLENA! she lend me her dictionary!

now, is time to worry for my GEOGRAPY papers TOMORROW!!!

i so going to die, cause i am not studying now and down here posting!!!

i am so afraid now!

i am so afraid to loss you!

what happened?

the time for me to lossing you is becoming closer and closer,

and the feeling that i will loss you is also becoming strong and strong!

i cant control any more.

my heart is pain every moment.

my tear will drop every night and i cant stop it.

i begin to *** myself more.

i am really scared!

can you promise me that we will forever remain like that,

or even become closer or what?

i know you wont and you dont bother,

so i dont even dare to ask you.

iloveyoutoodeep.

tobewith***ismywish.

Labels: stop now and keep the sweet memory in my heart?

English Papers.

Monday, October 02, 2006;5:23 PM

English Papers today!

and it manageable to me,

but i think i going to fail

as through out the two paper,

i had running nose!

then i cant concentrate,

and my handwritting suck,

somehow some of the question,

i gave stupid answer.

OMYGOSH! i am really scared that i will fail!

the mike was powerful today!

is like damn LOUD!

and i guess my pledge was okies?.!i dont know.

haish.

tomorrow i am saying it too.

having flu and feeling cold now.

and is like i going to sick.

WHY NOW?

is like the beginning of the whole exam!

although i really want to get sick,

but i DONT WANT FLU!

i just hate it.

tomorrow need to bring 3 packets of tissues to school, i guess.

mood swing now!

just now was happy/normal,

now was damn sad and scared.

i am really afraid now.

what can i do now?

how good if the time stop now,

with you by my side.

i know it is impossible. haish.

Labels: what will happen if i loss you?

EXAM TOMORROW!!!

Sunday, October 01, 2006;8:12 PM

AAAHHH!!!HELP!!!
going for a "war" tomorrow!
AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

happy happy now!
cause of someone.
i really love it.
lalalalala!thanks you!
i really need it! (:

just take a long look at my exam timetable.
and guess what???
after my english and chinese paper then here come GEOGRAPHY!
and guess what???
i haven't study for geography!!!
i so going to die young.
this few days keep on studying for history, science and math.
hope this three papers i will score well.

ps: EVERYONE, GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR PAPER TOMORROW! JIAYOU!(:

Labels: take a deep breath before you start your exam papers.

a lesson learnt.

;12:21 PM

last few week happened alot of things,

and i had learnt sometings.

i think it will be useful to me next time.

we "never judge a book by it cover".

as it can be different as what we think.

and we can get "cheated" when we know the true.

never blame people for what they didnt do,

if you THINK/FEEL that he/she did somethings wrong,

but you NOT MORE THAN 100% SURE.

then you should find out the true before you go around scold him/her,

or say nasty stuff about him/her as it really very hurting!

and i believe no one will like people to blame you for things that you didnt do.

so think carefully, before you do something or say something to hurt someone,

everyone have feeling, put yourself in their shoes

and think for them!

forget the past and create a better future,

dont leave any regret in your life.

Labels: smile and look brighter for tomorrow (: