rain.
Saturday, September 30, 2006;8:30 PM
lalalalala.
rainy day is so GOOD!
i love RAINY DAY!
is like so WINDY and NICE.
rainy is just so cool!hahaha!
just now went to you-tube,
found some SAC video but not much only like 2-3.
one of them is about cherie's class which is 2/5.
very funny! they video during their drama.
hahahahahahaha.
after looking at the video,
make me feeling making one video for my cca.
but i dont know how.
so need to wait for exam to over and i try to figure out.
is like so interesting!
ilove you so
Labels: memory with you, will always be in my heart.
friday.
Friday, September 29, 2006;9:05 PM
half day!
meet my sis, and i accompany her go buy stuff.
she brought me my fav. pen, treat me eat my fav.pocky and KFC!
she damn ROCK!
stay at home study study,
at first wanted to sleep but end up talk on the phone.
talked for 3 hours plus.
just finish talking on the phone with alicia.
and i made her cried,
cause i scared her of somethings.
very funny,
after made her cried,
i said somethings stupid to make her laugh.
so she okies now. hahaha.
NIYING REALLY GOOD IN GUESSING SONG!
i was listening to radio then she can guess what song i am listening!
OMYGOSH! SO PRO.!
so damn jealous.
she is so the damn good lar!hahaha
ps:niying,i purposely make it bigbig!hahaha.
lalala!nothing troubling is so good!(:
i started wrong but i END IT RIGHT!
Labels: HAPPINESS is the GREATEST things on the earth
the feeling.the heart.the love.
;3:17 PM
iloveyoumorethanever
sogoodtohaveyouaround
lovethetimewithyou
ireallyneedyou
thanksforallthose
ireallyloveit
andiamreallyhappy!(:
maybeonedayiwillgethurt,
butireallyhopethedaywontcome.
iknowyoudontbother........
anditreallyhurt.
andiwilldoitmorewheniknowit
causemyheartisbleeding
itwillalwaysbleeduntil........
afterall,iwillstillloveu.
thanks,forthethingsandtimes.
Labels: sweet sweet love
sleepy.
Thursday, September 28, 2006;9:53 PM
987FM ROCK!
listening to it like mad.
addicted to it now!
heard LOT OF LOT OF NICE SONG!
IT JUST ROCK!
damn scared NOW!
EOY is like in 3 DAYS TIME!!! OMYGOSH!!!
then got GUITAR GRADE 1 EXAM coming by!!!
then CONCERT, follow by SYF!!!
DIE!!! so the damn nervous NOW!!!
is like "ants on the hot pot", direct translate from one chinese pharse,
which is "re guo shang de ma yi". hahaha!!!
this two days, super sleepy.
everytime study half way, i will fall a sleep. WTH!!!
by now i think 987 FM help me to stay awake! WHOO~~
too crazy???
HAPPY HAPPY!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006;10:07 PM
feeling so good now!
eveythings is okies!
YUPEE!
last day of science really good.
as in good that is the last science lesson with SPCA. hahaha.
but worst of all is, last day of science,
SPCA still nag nag nag.
no words can express!
i am really happy,
after so many days of sadness, confusion, depression, stress more and more.
and today is really the best!
FRIENDS ROCK!
by saying out everthings,
there is no more misunderstanding.
SUPER DUPER HAPPY!
people wish me luck luck for my literature skip exam tomorrow.
SMILE! (:
the feeling of pain is nothing compared to my the pain in my heart.
today.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006;6:00 PM
didnt talk much today, i guess.
wanted to be quiet for the whole day
but end up i talked.
my heart feeling so the uncomfortable now!
it make me feel very difficult in breathing too.
htlaehymtceffanacnoitomeym.
did a lot of writing today,
just want my mind to concentrate on study and not other things.
art was sucky today.
grabage here grabage there through out the lesson.
that teacher said our work is grabage.
so MEAN!
she dont appreciate then just keep quiet lar.
dont need to be so insulting what.
people got feeling one!
and why does teacher/adult always be so UNREASONABLE
and ALWAYS THINK THAT THEY ARE ALWAYS RIGHT!
so what they are teacher or adult, they still can make mistake lor!
and so what we are just a kid or what,
there also time that WE ARE CORRECT!
school just rock for TWICE.
as the coming FRIDAY, THE SCHOOL ONLY GOING TO FUNCTION UNTIL 10.35AM!*cheer*
due to some reason!
CHEER FOR MRS LOH AND TEACHERS!
WHOO~WHEE~
my heart is feeling pain.
PISS OFF!
;5:41 PM
super duper PISS!can you all stop blaming me on all the nonsense,please find out the fact before you blame people.**** OFF LAR!i didnt show out my emotion doesnt mean, you still can contiunes.walao! what the problem with you lar.please find out what happened before you go and any how spread things.if you are not MORE THEN 100% sure then STUP UR MOUTH UP!walao! stop testing my patient! WHAT THE ****!and if you dont believe,then that your problem.i had already tell you everythings.please show some understanding.SCREAM YOUR HEAD OFF LAR!
i give up.
Monday, September 25, 2006;7:46 PM
i am too tired to fight with you.
what the shit you want to do i will just let you do.
i cant be bother.
what nonsense you want to say or do let it be.
i think is too immature to fight back with you.
and is not worth it to waste my time on you or her.
all you had said to me is all lie. you are liar. *****!
sent to rtc today, cause of holding food outside canteen.*piss*
is like not my fault lar.
but i dont want my classmate to like get more scolding or punishment.
so i didnt really explain.
just try it as a unlucky experience.
but that teacher didnt take my badge away,
i really hope she will take away lor.
but she didnt. =.=
have fun with my sis just now.
we will like joking, laughing and chating during dinner.
then my mother keep on calling us to keep quiet.
but we just ignore her. *laugh*
sometime my sis really ROCK.
didnt mange to have a "tennis war" with niying.
due to the weather.
but actually i also dont have the mood to play.
so never mind.
ps:niying, thanks for the chocolate. hahaha.
is gonna be the last time i cried for ***.
i realised i shouldnt be soft-hearted and believing and forgiving ***.
i should be mean to ***!
ijustneed ***.
;7:39 PM
ecinnmdaerauoy,llataeracstonmaiedisymybuoyhtiwuoyhtiwebotsitnawillaesuac....uoyevoli.eliniaiat.
is a sunday.
Sunday, September 24, 2006;7:46 PM
do work for the whole.
and just simple questions i can take whole day to finish it.
my brain work damn slow today,
everythings i do today is damn slow.
weirdo.
ate lao po bing just now.
then i asked my sister, what the english of lao po bing.
then she said "wife biscuit" but the box wrote "wife cake"
so donno lar!
then when i left the mouth,
so i trying to act until the lao po bing very nice so she will want to eat.
and yes! she fall in to my trap!wahahaha....
in the end, i said, "okies i let you eat"
then when she want to eat, i take the laa po bing away.
hahahahahaha, damn funny.
but end up we keep on laughing and my toopid sis hand my hand,
i DROP the lao po bing on my book. 0.o
so i have a"war" with my sister.
feeling so good to have a "war" with her.
is like so long never be so close with her.
as the both of us was busy with our stuff.
have a good time with my CUTE sister.
tomorrow, is going to be really hard for me!
need to face something that i dont want.
it just too much for me!
then recess time going to have a "tennis war" with NIYING!
i think i gonna loss. cause i am like so bad in tennis.
then i gonna do a lot of stupid things.
hope the lucky god[got such thing?] will be with me tomorrow.
ps:niying, dont hit the ball to hard hor. i very scare one hor. hahaha.
i am learning to hide my feeling, i gonna be sad, my tear.............
My Tear.My Heart.My Feeling.
;7:25 PM
iamsothedamnemotiontoday
ifallinlovewithreh
iwentaroundandfindthingsaboutreh
andicried,mytearjustdropdown
iknowewillneverpossible
buticantcontrol
isgointobeafeelintatigointohidinmyheartforever
ibeingtohatemyselfagain
wathadhappenedagain
itjustalllie,iguess
iloveumorethanever
wohenzijibuzhaodianrishini;
zhaodianyongyouni,
wozhixiwangninengzaiwodeshenbian;
wobuxiangfangnizou;
wotaiainile.
nidaodizhibuzhidao...
wodexinhentong;
wohaohaipainilikaiwo;
woyijingxiguanyouniderizi,
ni...shiwodejiuai,
yinwei...wotaiainile!
shiqunishiwobuxiwangdeshi
ainishiwoyaode
henizaiyiqizhishiwodexiwang
yaonizaiwoshenbianshiwokukuyaoqiude
ziyaokandaonidexiao...zaidadetongkuwodounengchengdan
yinwei...woaishangleni...wobexiangshiquni!
iniaow.
Restart.
Saturday, September 23, 2006;4:11 PM
is all over.
feel so lighten now,
monday is going to be my restart.[sound weird]
i going to smile and face everything.
i dont wanna be sad any more.
cause i got my friend out there to support me!
friend is the nicest people on the earth!
dont know whether i am going to say pledge next week anot.
cause is my buddy turn to say.
i dont think i want to say.
cause i want to observe the school when saying pledge.
i love to observe people!*laugh*
exam! exam! exam!
die! die! die!
going to study like a mad women.
i want to score well this time around!
i need to get back my POSITION!
i wont be sad cause of you, as it NOT WORTH it!
finally it happened!
Friday, September 22, 2006;8:11 PM
what i afraid had really happened!i had not more energy to angry or upset.cause i had prepared for it.all i can do is to accept it,when i really dont want.is it my fault?what did i do wrongly?you had betrayed me,when i really trust you the most.you making me hate you!
moody day.
;6:05 PM
everyone is moody.
damn upset today.
no one know or understand.
cause they will never.
got back history test and i had all correct,
but i dont feel happy at all,
even the progress thingy also,
i was thinking what so good about it, just dont have red mark.
i have negative thinking now.
is time for me.
maybe we should just......
your action show everythings instead of your words.
i just give up hope on it and on you.
but i still **** you.
dont sad if someone is leaving,
but happy cause it time for her to learn something new.
there always a time for her to leave.
dont heartbroken if she forget you,
but happy cause at least you all have your own sweet, loving and happy memory.
smile and look brighter for tomorrow.
as there will always be someone caring for you, trying to make you happy,
and somethings more meaningful for you to do.
is time to let you go.
8 more days!
Thursday, September 21, 2006;8:54 PM
left 10 more days!
and somethings is going to happen on 2 oct 2006!
get back my progress card,
and guess what?!
I DIDNT FAIL ANY SUBJECT!
DAMN HAPPY.
but i dont know what my parent will say,
cause they every time expect more from me!
and due to my result, it is more difficult for me to step down!
10 more days and here come the EXAM
down for a "exam war" in 10 days time.
good luck for me!
need to make full use of the 10 days!
STUDY! STUDY! STUDY!
i trying to give you everything i have,
and not hurting you.
but i failed, i guess.
what do you think we should do so there will be a happy ending?
is too much, i guess!
friends is more important then anythings, they are long-lasting.
i hope it gonna be the last.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006;9:16 PM
i think i solve all my problems.
feel so lighten now,
but still feel like crying.
i decided to leave everythings to god.
so what things i facing now,
i just leave it to god to tell me what my next step!
including the relationship!
sorry, if i hurt you.
cause i think you are the one who hurt me first!
but still very sorry!
i am lost!
i just want to make you happy.
happy!yappy!
Tuesday, September 19, 2006;8:45 PM
very happy now!
you~whoo~
cause of someone and somethings.
lalala! i am getting HIGH!
after so many hurt, heartbroken, sad days.
i am finally HAPPY for once.
someone is very high now,
and she spreading her highness to me!
have a nice, high and FUNNY chat with her.
ps:to that someone:you should know who are you!hahahahahaha!
i just **** *** to rock my life!!!
the thirteen days feeling.
Monday, September 18, 2006;8:04 PM
my mood: sad, hurt, happy and mad.
today, pledge was okies, i guess
that what my friends told me.
still got made mistake.
but hope tomorrow will be better.
gonna do it by myself this whole week,
and today is the first day,
so i had started it right,
so i really hope tomorrow wont have any problem. (:
talked to mrs chong about me stepping down,
and guess what...
she DONT ALLOW!
WTH!
i want to step down!
cause of some reason, which i not going to say here.
why this is not my choice?
today is the thirteen days.
thanks for giving all the feelings,
although some of the feeling really hurt me lot and make me suffer.
but i still want to thanks you,
for giving me all the happy feelings too!
i should just let you go and forget you,
maybe this is the best things.
but i still want to see you happy,
so no matter what,
just to see you happy and what pain i'm going to suffer is all worth it!
this is all i want!
PISS!
Sunday, September 17, 2006;4:17 PM
damn piss with someone now!
given her a lot of chance
but end up she still the same!
WTH!
i feeling so the guilty now!
i am hurting someone,
in one way that me, myself dont even know!
feeling very sorry now.
i dont know what can i do, beside not breaking _ _ _ heart
feeling so confused!
i am lying to my heart.
when can i end all this damn things?
i am just happy cause of ***.
although it look just a simple things,
but i am already very happy!
so i hope *** will do it.
please dont ***** my ***** again!
everyone is giving me a hit at my back instead of supporting me!
Is This Really What I Want?
Saturday, September 16, 2006;8:24 PM
FORBIDDEN CITY ROCK!
is just so nice!
is worth it to watch!
have a few minutes of chat with ms chua today,
about the show and my class.
really PROUD of 2/2!
going to say pledge for the next whole week
i am like going to give up on myself.
i know you all dont like me to say it,
but i have no choice!
i also wish i dont need to say it!
and cause of pledge,
it affect the mood for the rest of the day!
pledge just **** my life!
and i going to talk to mrs chong next week,
although i know it wont make any different.
but i not talking to her about the pledge!
i wanna thank angelyn and ethel!
they really helped me a lot for the pass few months.
and the both of them had given me a lot of encouragement.
which i really need them.
they are really nice.
angelyn and ethel,
thanks for helping me lot! i really appreciate it! (:
i am just so the damn sad now.
actually i should be happy but i am not.
i dont want to lead this type of life.
is just like going to affect my whole mood!
**** **!
i just **** *** like hell!
Heart pain.
Thursday, September 14, 2006;6:52 PM
MOOD SWING.
pledge for today is okies, but got people said it was too soft.
i going to say it tomorrow and the whole of NEXT WEEK!
cause my buddy is down for OBS! and tomorrow, i want to train myself.
i think tomorrow will be better,
cause tomorrow no need to say infront of the whole school!
ms voon, changed our sitting arrangement again!
and this time round i volunteer myself to help her to change the sitting plan.
i had already finish doing it,
but i hope she wont call me to do anymore changes, when she see it tomorrow.
fianlly i am like done with all holiday homework.
mood swing like dont know when lesson start.
dont know why?
then started to do something after recess,
which made my mood didnt change from bad to worst.
then stay back for chinese tutorial.
and something happenend, my mood swing again!
WTH!
today, didnt stay back until late late, cause.............
*** done it,
and i am sad instead of ******.
i dont know why?
maybe cause *** look ***.
and it hurt me!
i dont know.
i gonna *** tonight again.
haish.
is like again and again.
it will affect me!
DAMN SAD.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006;9:41 PM
this few days my mood is SUPER BAD!
the past two days, was really BAD.
but cca was fun. cause a spider drop on my score,
and mr choo help me catch and more and more.
but today, the atmosphere of cca is very weird. [i dont know how to say]
and petrina, she so mean!
my new duty of the term is pledge
and i suck in it!
i dont want to do!
and i hate it when people giving me mean comment.
is like people got feeling one, i didnt say it out doesnt mean i dont mind!
if you all were me, facing so many people and still doesnt get use to the situation,plus under so much stress, do you think you can still say it nicely too?
so what if you say you can, but doesnt mean you can and other people also can!
so please think for the others!
doing pledge just make my life suck!
i hate all those comment!
and i am working on to say out a pledge with NO MISTAKE!
this few day my mood is really bad,
keep on mood swing!
then every days ***!
and heart pain, more and more.
i am very sad!
then cause my mood is bad and is like affecting my cca. haish.
I HATE IT!
i just a feeling i have.
and i am hurt by ***!
why is ***!
cause i dont like *** to hurt me.
but *** like slow reaction, so *** dont know.
so *** will still continues to hurt me.
i *** cause of **!
forget it,
cause *** will never know, maybe *** wont even bother!
am i having the wrong feeling to the wrong person?
but i dont want to give up!
cause I DONT WANT!
i just **** ***.
PS:thank you, alicia, niying and mayvelle. (:
without ***, i am totally lost!
It just matter of TIME.
Sunday, September 10, 2006;9:03 PM
feel so sick now!
SUPER DUPER don feel like going to school tomoorow.
although cca will be fun but.....
HAISH!
i just DONT WANT
cause I REALLY DONT WANT
i dont know whether do i have anymore energy,
to face the up coming problems.
i just hope HOLIDAE will be FOREVER.
i got a feeling tomorrow will be a bad day for me.
WTH!
I REALLY DONT WANT
I DONT WANT!!!
just finish finding baby photo for my project
then later need to draw graph.
AAARRRGGGHHH.
tonight going to sleep late.
i just want rain.
cause i can *** in the rain.
haish.
i am just waiting for you, please dont disappoint me. I BEG U!
Just Another One.
Saturday, September 09, 2006;4:13 PM
I JUST BROUGHT MY NEW SCHOOL SHOE!
size SEVEN!
is like a bit big
but if i buy six
is like a bit small.
why dont have six half.
but never mind, i still like my new school shoe.
i am just bored.
going to finish my history project now.
then my chinese letter writing
then geography
then i am done with all my work.
when a relationship just start,
it always be sweet and fill with happiness.
But after a long long time,
the relationship will begin to fade,
and it will always be pain and fill with sorrow.
why cant the sweet and happiness last forever?
why relationship/things must end up this way?
maybe i just matter how you treat someone or something.
I Dont Want
;10:40 AM
school is going to reopen in one day time!
I DONT WANT!!!
cutting my hair again!
and is going to be short!
cause i dont want to tie my hair.
hope after cutting my hair,
everything will be good,
and a fresh and new start.
buying school shoe later!
YOOWHOO~~~
it time to buy school shoe.
quite suprised that my mother let me buy,
with out me begging her.
my mother ROCK for once. :p
going to starbuck and study.
YUPEE~~~
can drink my fav. drink.
my sis ROCK man!
my thumb!
was very pain yesterday,
keep on playing guitar
and play LOUD LOUD
i cant and dont dare to imagine what will happen
when the three day two night camp come.
my thumb! T_T
must really get use to it.
and i think i am working on it.
cause yesterday while playing,
i try my best to ignore the pain
and enjoy the pieces.
ENSEMBLE JUST ROCK!
I **** and **** that person.
i want to rest!
Friday, September 08, 2006;7:46 PM
i am so tired.
from head to my toe i feel so pain.
my whole body is aching.
AAAGGGRRRHHH!!!
all i need now is A LONG REST
i am so piss with something today,
which i am not going to say here.
AAAAAHHHHHH!!!
I HATE HER!
and i know nither she like me!
but i just HATE HER
why must she appear in my life!
GET LOST PLEASE!
i am so afraid now.
who can give me courage?
the darkness come back again!
i am really afraid now!
i am LOST!
school is going to reopen.
i just hope a bomb will drop at the school,
which i know is SUPER IMPOSSIBLE.
now i dont what the point for me going to school,
beside of the two of them and some of my friend.
things is going opposite again!
I HATE NOW!
ps: for once NIYING! i can mess up your hair! haha. :p
question mark is all i know now!
i am sorry. please give me sometime!
Thursday, September 07, 2006;9:11 PM
i am disappointing people!
what gone wrong with me.
i feel like crying when angelyn chatting to me.
i scare i will cry tomorrow.
I HATE THE FEELING NOW!
i dont want to disappoint people.
I HATE TO DO THIS!
but i dont know why am i doing that.
i am very confuse now.
i am really lost!
i feel like being alone
i need some time
i need some space
in order for me to be back to normal.
now i am like *out of breath*
SORRY!
alicia, thank. after talking to you,
i feel so much better. (:
maybe be a normal student will be better.
what wrong?
Wednesday, September 06, 2006;9:00 PM
Yesterday : 5 Sep 2006
WHOO~~~
today. FUN FUN FUN!
at the airport,
walk here walk there,
laugh here laugh there,
eat here eat there.
end up didnt do the project AT ALL!
then happy hitting NIYING!
and THANK YOU, ALICIA
for your MILO CHOCOLATE! (:
but someone went to spoil my mood today. :(
TODAY
for dont know what goodness sick reason,
I FELT SUPER TIRED, even for cca too!
i LOST my enthusiasm in cca!
I DONT LIKE THIS FEELING!!!
something wrong with me!
can this feeling that i dont like,
GET OUT OF MY BODY/SOUL!!!
feel like screaming now!
today, a bad day!
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!
WHERE ARE YOU ALL!!!
i want to talk to you all!
they, the only two person,
that i trust the MOST!!!
*ps:alicia, u shld noe who i am refering to!*
WHERE ARE YOU ALL!!!
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!
PS: CHUA NIYING! YOU WON!
I GOT STM WHAT!
THAT WHY I CANT RMB WHAT!
BLAH! BLAH! BLAH!
CHUA NIYING ROCK MY SMELLY SHOE!
SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY VOICE!
LALALA!
Monday, September 04, 2006;8:04 PM
Fianlly i posted. [lazy]
last thurday went out for lunch,
with some guitar people and mr choo
and we went to FISH and CO!
niceeee. mr choo treated!
then saturday went to sacps to help up.
quite okies.
then have my lunch at subway,
with mr choo, amantha and zhihan.
and of course mr choo treated!
the lunch was fun.
keep on laughing.
and i said some stupid stuff.
and i didsomething
but hope mr choo dont remember.
if not i die! *laugh*
going out tomorrow.
to do my literature project.
at airport.
you~whoooo~
going to take sky train. >.<"
hope tomorrow going to be fun. (:
exam is coming.
eeyerr~~
STUDY STUDY!!!
and going to starbuck to study.
with my nicest sister in the world.
then she can treat me, my fav. drink.
wahahaha. >.<"
I LOVE HOLIDAEE~~~
