can we find back the past?

today cca was fun. cause of someone and something. thank for mr choo to give me this chance. i really need to treasure what i have now. cause i cant afford to give up or lose out any of them.

today, i cried. first time in history, i cried cause of my class or should i said cried cause of some people from my class. i dont know what to do now! why everything must blame at me? can u all think for me first! can you all put yourself in my shoe? am i the one who started all this stupid stuff?why am i always be the "bad person"? what the point of giving you all leadership position when you all just SAY and not do it by your ACTION? you all will only use your mouth to call the class to keep quiet. but can you all also doing something to keep them in order! what the point only me doing? and when i do it, you all dont help! but if i didnt do, you all will go around tell others? so what you all want me to do? [this feeling i also have it in another situation] maybe the best things is to keep quiet and from today onwards i wont care anything at all and this may include ***[for somethings but not all].

maybe this will the BEST solution.

i learnt to aviod problem cause this may also be the BEST solution.

if my expectation too high? am i really want too much from you all? am i wrong? maybe i am! lucky someone had given me this chance to know what happened! although i am really hurt when i know about it. cause i am really wrong. i cant force you all do things that i want you all do but i didnt care about all your feeling. cause you all have your own right! i am really wrong this time???!!!

"HOT SEAT"! it will be on friday. and friday should be the best day of the week but this few weeks all the fridays can only use the word SUCK to describe. OMGOSHS! PLEASE I DONT WANT FRIDAY! cause it will be a WORST DAY OF MY LIFE! I DONT WANT!AHHAHHHAHH!

SCREAMING is all i WANT and WISH!!!