today ROCK!

everythings went well. i am so happy. finally, i am happy once again. :) lesson per normal, just that the last two period i am slacking cause i do finish all my works. Got back my math paper 1 mock exam and math class test. I PASS BOTH! i am so HAPPY! cause i thought i did very badly for both paper. yupee (:

cca was okies today. is not as bad as last time anymore. but i hope the rest of the practice will be as good as today. :) really very HAPPY today! especially the for "HOT - SEAT" part, cause it doesnt turn out as badly as i thought instead it become a point that we talk to each other nicely and we face our problem. IS GOOD! my mood is SUPER GOOD today. :)

ohx! I CUT MY HAIR TODAY!!! i just thin it and shorter a bit but still can tie. i love my new hair style! mr choo cant talk today, he still got a bit of voice just that the doctor advise him not to talk. poor thing. so drink a lot of water. now a days, all my teacher having sore throat, so teachers, must take care themselves. poor thing! :p

today is a GOOD DAY!!!

stay back today!

today lessons was okies! i just realise that i have been slacking for quite a long time so is time for me to study REALLY HARD now. is time to WAKE UP!

after school, waited for janessa at my class cause i need to pass her letter. then went to art room to do my art! and while doing i have this habit to hit niying[she also got hit me]. who call her come and irritate me, but very fun. then we also play a bit while doing. so i enjoy myself alot[the true was cause got that ****** that why i enjoy alot]. OHX! i just realise that niying is quite a special person, in some way [i don't how to explain]. just that she not the person that i think that she is. work with her was fun. when she serious with her work she really serious[i guess]. joke/play with her can be really crazy.*laugh* this also tell me that we can judge people by looking at their look or action[maybe/sometime] but their inner beauty.

then after doing art, actually i am going home. but i don't know why in one sudden i want to go watch people play tennis.[cause got ****] so i went. then talk talk to janessa a bit. end up i went home with her, so i wait for her until 5.30. then we went home together. on the way back, she complained to me something about her cca which i am not going to say cause she said cannot say. >.<"

just want you all by my side.

can we find back the past?

today cca was fun. cause of someone and something. thank for mr choo to give me this chance. i really need to treasure what i have now. cause i cant afford to give up or lose out any of them.

today, i cried. first time in history, i cried cause of my class or should i said cried cause of some people from my class. i dont know what to do now! why everything must blame at me? can u all think for me first! can you all put yourself in my shoe? am i the one who started all this stupid stuff?why am i always be the "bad person"? what the point of giving you all leadership position when you all just SAY and not do it by your ACTION? you all will only use your mouth to call the class to keep quiet. but can you all also doing something to keep them in order! what the point only me doing? and when i do it, you all dont help! but if i didnt do, you all will go around tell others? so what you all want me to do? [this feeling i also have it in another situation] maybe the best things is to keep quiet and from today onwards i wont care anything at all and this may include ***[for somethings but not all].

maybe this will the BEST solution.

i learnt to aviod problem cause this may also be the BEST solution.

if my expectation too high? am i really want too much from you all? am i wrong? maybe i am! lucky someone had given me this chance to know what happened! although i am really hurt when i know about it. cause i am really wrong. i cant force you all do things that i want you all do but i didnt care about all your feeling. cause you all have your own right! i am really wrong this time???!!!

"HOT SEAT"! it will be on friday. and friday should be the best day of the week but this few weeks all the fridays can only use the word SUCK to describe. OMGOSHS! PLEASE I DONT WANT FRIDAY! cause it will be a WORST DAY OF MY LIFE! I DONT WANT!AHHAHHHAHH!

SCREAMING is all i WANT and WISH!!!

times seem to be flying really fast.

this week pass really fast. good and bad things happened. and i had made a Decision.

cca on friday was okies plus abit of unusual. the atmosphere was unusual. the unusual quietness. but overall was okies. i am really happy that my buddy was really working really well. i am really very happy.

the right attitude? the expectation? we haven't meet our expectation, we didnt give the right attitude. and here come the argument or the misunderstanding. all i can say is if u dont let the person know what you feel or what you wamt, he/she will never understand and the problem will never solve. maybe sometime, u might get tired of keep on telling he/she this or that. but by doing this the problem will be solve, wasnt its a happy ending? whenever u are tired, give urself encouragement. and everything will be solve. :)

it took me quite sometime to make the decision, it took me alot of courage to make this decision and i need alot of energy to face the up coming problems.

i am so disappointed with myself. just because i am scared and i am not doing what i am suppose do. i feel so guilty when i am not doing what i am suppose to do and keep on lying to myself that it okies and i am not wrong. but actually i am wrong.

i am not fit to take what i have now, so i decided to take this thing out of my life. to lighten my life, to make me feel less guilty and to make my mind focus on what i left, so i don't repeat the same mistake.

SO take the first step to do or say something if the others doesnt.