a restart.
Monday, June 26, 2006;8:44 PM
school reopen, there is good and bad.
;good that it doesn't started as bad as what i had thought. my duty was checking SEC 1/8, they are good but still got some need to change abit. so 1/8, you gals really lighten my job alot. thank. =)
;bad was i got few new teachers, which i really hate it. but no chocie, i just have to accept the fact. and tomorrow got ART, one word DIE. i have already prepare the worst of it.
first day of school, i already felt tired and sick. i got FLU which i really hate it. but i will still be going to school tomorrow. my science lesson is getting more boring and boring. one word, HAISH.
cca was okies! it wasn't really very good, but i don't know how to explain, we can do better! have ensemble for like 30mins, still the same words, can be better. i think today, stuff was abit mess. conducting of ensemble was done by angelyn and sherrill, not bad. today, cca ended very late, i was like half dead.
i was tired today, thing can lighten but i don't know how. i felt like i am in a maze now, lost my direction. i need some guide.
*sometime people do felt annoyed by something, we need to relax them down and get thing done better in a faster way. =)
sorting up my life!
comment.
Friday, June 23, 2006;9:59 PM
just my comment.
i can like relax now! cause i had done with most of my homework, really very happy. left 2 more days for my to enjoy, but i think i not going out, although i really feel like going out. i should be resting this 2 days.
school is going to reopen, i have not prepare for it. cause i never wish for going to school, is not because i don't like study or what. but is because, going to school is meaningless to me now. (except going for cca) for the past 1 and the half year, i had never enjoy going to school. as, is there really something for me to enjoy? i just wish my day in school will faster pass. can school really my me happy?
there are cca on the first day of school. i am okies with it. cause going to cca is the only thing i enjoy going to school. cca to me, is like half of my life. cause i really love guitar. the music make me relax myself, i will really feel happy when i know how to play one piece of song. and going to cca, i had learnt a lot of thing from the committee, instructor and the rest of the member. learnt to work with the committee to improve the ensemble, accept the advice that my instructor had given to us and make the member feel like they belong to the BIG FAMILY. i am really glad that i am part of the family, i never fail to enjoy the time with them. although there are time that we feel sad, but there are time we are happy. so we laugh together, cry together and give courage to each other when ever we have any performance. so in one ensemble we need help from everyone, with the strength from everyone, we can both improve the ensemble and at the same time enjoy ourselves. lastly as i had told angelyn before, ' in one ensemble, there are NO you or me but only GOT we or us.' i love this sentence. i think i heard it from somewhere but i don't know where i heard it or who tell me before. so ensemble is like a BIG FAMILY! =)
2 more days to school reopen!
a refreshment!
Wednesday, June 21, 2006;5:33 PM
i want to sleep!
very sleepy now. have a few minutes of sleep when on the home after collecting my passport. reached home at 4 sharp. and finally i started to do my homework again. just realise that there is no english homework.YEAH! hopefully can finish my history and done all the research for science and art, by tomorrow.
cca today was fine. reached school around 8.30am. i am not the earliest but not the lastest too. tiffany was the first to reach follow by me, sherrill and angelyn. she told me to come early, then she herself late. when mr choo reach, open the pfa, take keys, open doors and cca start. cca started with the practicing of FALL-IN, when mr choo was saying the command, it was like SUPER LOUD, then scared me. cause first time heard him 'said' something SO LOUD! and yah, i know he wasn't trying to be fierce or what, but he don't often 'said' something so loud, so don't get use to it. FALL-IN is not a laughing matter, we must be serious when we doing it! so everyone was like really very cooperate when we doing it. so i think we done it quite well. =)
after fall-in then was few minutes of ensemble and performance. sherrill and my group played the same song,"Guang Huai Fang Shi" but our group sang the song and we got some help from mr choo. and angelyn group played some part of"Cannon In D", so is really nice. next was mr choo performance he played cum sang, 3 song, "I Will Run To You", "Heart Of Worship" and "Welcome To The Family". i loved the third song, is really NICE! going to find the score and song.
after performance was GAME! we played 3 games, and it was fun. then next was LUNCH! me, sherrill, angelyn, tiffany with mr choo went to tampines mart to have our lunch. after lunch was solo playing then i left cca around 1.25 cause i need to meet my parent and go some wu-lu wu-lu place to collect passport.
so that all for my day! =)
how should i express my feeling using the correct way. i don't know. i am trying. but always turn out bad. so now i hide it cause i think it would be better.
you had called the wrong person to help you, but just to make you happy, i am willing to help you although i not my heart don't feel like.
5 more days to school reopen!
i need to control myself.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006;9:59 PM
wasn't a good day!
started the day VERY BADLY! before i even leave my home, something BAD happened! i almost cry, just got water in my eyes, but didn't cry. i not going to mention what happened cause really don't feel like. so today, before i even leave my house, the sky already started to rain! then i have no mood to go to school when raining but still need to go cause i want to go for cca. so went reached school, open room and blah blah.....
have ensemble during cca! we PLAYED alot today. overall for today is still okies, but today wasn't as fun as yesterday. thing went smooth, but i felt that something is missing but i don't know how should i say it. so i would still prefer yesterday then today. hope tomorrw would be better. =)
i feel sorry and bad about 2 things today. i didn't take in what i should and more! need reflection!
if money is that important to you;
if money can buy happiness;
if money can improve our life;
i would wish, i will have TONS of TONS of MONEY.
even if i have alot of money and die tomorrow,
but still can make your life easier.
then i don't mind!
AS I REALLY HATE MY LIFE NOW! IS LIKE HELL FOR ME!
6 more days to school reopen!
is money that important?
Monday, June 19, 2006;8:31 PM
tiring day!
SUPER angry in the morning! cause when i was leaving my house to go school, then start raining but never mind got umbrella. but when i left my house, walking to the bus stop then i realise that i forget to bring money. SO went home again! but when i reached home[when i didn't even go to school yet] the rain become SUPER HEAVY and i was late to meet the rest! so i decided to take cab to school. and the worst part is NO CAB! so i was late when i reach school!
cca was FUN! enjoy myself alot! have ENSEMBLE, and is really FUN! miss ensemble like don't know what, cause i really miss it! is like so good that every one can play together for a piece of song. learnt two new pieces of song by Eythor Thorlaksson, "El Gato Feliz" which is "Happy Cat" and Noche En Los Andes which is " Night On The Mountain"[i think is this title, can't really remember what it is.] i prefer the second song cause i think is easier. we also have one mini
technical exercise competition, we need to play on the guitar for 5 minutes and is NON STOP! we are break into 3 group, so each group send one representative to represent your group. so i was being send to represent my group, after playing for 5 minutes, none of the representative stop playing. everyone continue to play for another 6 more minutes when every one want us to stop so we have no choice but stop, if not we can play until don't know when cause we play until our finger all numb so don't have the feeling of pain. actually we need to break mr choo record which is 10 minutes but he give us 50% discount but we still break his record in the end cause we played for 11 MINUTES and in NON STOP. should have more this type of competition! =)
so after cca when home! SUPER TRIED, somemore feel like VOMITING! so didn't eat much for my dinner, if not i will really vomit. so today didn't really eat much! good for me man!
got something to share with you ppl:
" There is a magnet in your heart that will attract true friend.
That magnet is unselfishness;thinking of others first.
When you learn to live for others, they will live for you.
* The best way to reach your goals is to help other reach theirs. "
i get the above quotes from this book call 'Life Me Up'!
7 more days to school reopen! :(
i need to control myself!
Sunday, June 18, 2006;11:17 PM
a bad day!
wake up around 9 plus then start reading my story book until 12 plus. after eating my lunch, i start playing guitar until 3 plus then go for my afternoon nap. now my left hand a bit pain, cause played guitar for too long and is non stop. but partly is not because i played for too long, is because i just cut my fingernail then cut too deep, so abit pain.
learnt 3 new pieces of new song from different pages. one of the song i really love it. is SUPER NICE! going to master it really well with no mistake plus i want to play with out looking at the score. =)
tomorrow going school for cca. i think it will be fun, got game and stuff. hope i will enjoy tomorrow. so now going to sleep cause need to wake up around 7 plus, need to reach before 8.30am.
to make u smile.
i hope is my job.
but is really hard for me!
cause...
i need you/You!
8 more days to school reopen!
Saturday, June 17, 2006;4:43 PM
what a nice day!
went out with my sis just now. we went to city hall to meet my sis friend, cause she need to return something to my sis. then later went to tampine library to find some books that i wanted to borrow, but i can't find any! after borrowing some books, we went to Yamaha. cause i want to buy guitar pick and look up for some guitar and volin books. i bought 4 guitar picks which cost me $2.50. it really nice! [i think] then i saw one pink top which is SUPER NICE, and the price was NICE too! it cost $27! but it really nice! i really want to buy, but by the time i have the money to buy, the top would have sold out! SAD! feel like crying now! :( but on the way home, my sis brought me, my favourite APPLE TEA! she is super NICE man!thank her! =)
now my plan is going to save up money, so that i can buy some stuff for myself and birthday present to some one. going to think really hard what to buy for that person! ;)
not going to online tonight cause my brother is back from his NS! but will online tomorrow night. so tomorrow after noon going to play guitar. going to try playing some song that i found in internet. =)
i wanna learn VIOLIN and DRUM!!!
thank for Your Blessing. =)
Friday, June 16, 2006;11:14 PM
second post of the day!
too bored man!
actually i not suppose to be online now, cause my parent want me to off my computer seen 1hours ago. but i don't want. cause if i off it, then i will really going to die of boredness!
i had download alot of song! really love it! OH! if you all have any nice song please tell me, cause i want MORE SONG! it will be good if it is a classcial song, cause i wanna try listening to it.
going to collect my passport on 21th which is next wednesday, it fall on the last day of my practice! i really want to go cca instead of collecting my passport. hate it man!
it like second time, i gotta miss cca! first time was because i am out of town, so this time is because of my passport. sian!
by the way, i wrote in my first post that i will try to complete my english and science homeworks. but i didn't cause don't have the mood. haish! OHYA! i found out what my chinese homwork, finally!
tomorrow is a must for me to finish at least two of my homework. if not i am really in deep trouble! [i think]
can You lead me to do right thing?
instead of getting bad to worse!
;12:00 PM
today is not my day.
what a boring day!
i am happy! cause i finally can use ares to download the song i want. rock man! i am starting to download any kind of song i want! it really cool! just finish download all kelly clarkson song! ROCK!
Because of You (kelly Clarkson)
Ohh ohh mmm(2times)
I will not make the same mistakes that you did and
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you...
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of youI find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you...
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing...
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you....ahahahahhhhh...
because of you...you..... mmmmmmmmmm........
nice song! really love it! i over heard it when i was on my way home after first day of chalet on cherie's parent's car. really nice man!
next week have cca! cant wait for it, cause gotta be exciting due to some reason.[only for me, i think] and going to cca is better than staying at home and rot.
just realise that i haven't complete my holiday homework! only finished my math and geography but i don't know how to print out my result of the math quiz. is not because, i don't have printer but is because there never write anything that say is allow to print and i can't copy my result too! got to figure it out soon. trying to finish my science and english today. and i feel really grateful that i don't have any homework for literature and HE[i think], plus i don't feel like/ don't know how, to do my art homework. maybe i not going to do, but i think is impossible cause if i don't do, the consequence i need to face is very BIG! haish. really don't have the mood to do it.
hate the feeling of being force. it miserable, repulsive, horrible!
10 more days to school reopen! :(
Wednesday, June 14, 2006;10:24 PM
chalet had over!
did enjoy myself and have a lot fun!
here it go about the chalet...
First Day of Chalet
met cherie, angelyn and sherrill at eastpoint, mr choo was late cause he need to do something. after buying the stuff and food at eastpoint we went to downtown east to order the cake for tiffany. after making the order, we head to aloha loyang and mr choo check in for the chalet. we took quite awhile finding where the chalet...
around 5 plus everyone start coming and by that time the fire had start. thank to mr choo, he really good in it. at 7, me, cherie, angelyn and sherrill with mr choo went to downtown east again to collect the cake and buy some stuff at cheer. so went we reach the cake shop, i realise that i didnt bring the receipt, but lucky that person allow as to collect the cake.
when on the way back to mr choo's car, we walk past a food court and the chicken rice stall was queued with alot of people. then mr choo went to join the queue, so we told him he can give us his car key and we will drive his car back to chalet then he will walk back to chalet after his queueing. so he really pass us his car key. then me and cherie walk first, left angelyn and sherrill with mr choo. as we planned to lock them outside of the car and drive back to chalet first. but we didn't lock them outside of the car cause we don't know how to drive...
after helping tiffany to celebrate her belated birthday, we play truth or dare. i had one dare which is about mr choo... actually is a double dare with sarah on the second day of chalet as she went home early, but mr choo come in the room when we playing half way, so they want me to do the dare infront of him without sarah... at first i didn't but i still do it, in the end.
me and cherie was the last to leave the chalet. before we left, we help to clean up abit cause it really DIRTY and got alot ANT.
that all for the first day, the fun part is when we playing truth or dare!
here go to the next day!
Second Day of Chalet
went to chalet alone, reached there around 11am, which is super early. i was the first to reach, when i walked in to the chalet the guy was play soccer and zhihan was watch them playing. so i talk to her for a while and went in to the room waiting for people to come. while waiting, i was listening to my music and reading my book.[lucky i got bring if not i will die of boredness] but the guy outside, shout/scream super loud. i heard that they didn't sleep at the first night then they still got the engry to play soccer. really very pei fu them, if me i will want to sleep. after reading the book for few pages, i heard someone/somebody was calling my name, at first was soft so i thought they call wrong person but they try again, which is super loud. so is zhihan they all call me in mr choo room, cause they scared i was bored or maybe other reason[can't remember] and call me join them, so i went in to the room. mr choo was entertaining them with music... i found out that mr choo singing wasn't bad.
had our lunch around 1 plus. then went to acrade to play for awhile, after playing went to the rent bicycle shop to rent bicycle. on the way there we called mr choo ask him whether he want to join us. at first he said no but end up he did come and join us. is was really fun to cycle, it nice that when you cycle you can feel the wind pass by you. it very cooling and can keep my trouble away.
after cycling, we all went back to chalet to rest for awhile and went to aracde to play car racing and stuff. mr choo is really good in it! after that we went to beach to play badminton and i didn't play cause don't feel like playing it. so i sat on the floor to rest and listening to the beach, it was nice too! around 8 plus, we all went back to chalet and some people went home. so left me, cherie, tiffany, beatrice, sindy and mr choo. we decide to barbecue the left over food for our dinner.
then around 10 me and cherie went home.
that all for the both day. have alot of fun, can't wait for the next chalet. hope it will be really fun too! =)
11more days to school reopen! :(
Sunday, June 11, 2006;3:38 PM
what a boring day!
don't know what happened to me, cause my heart ache seen in the morning, with no reason. until now still aching and i wasn't in a good mood in the afternoon. don't know why too. something was wrong with me, today! i think my heart was aching cause i miss someone (maybe) or it just pain cause i think i have the same illness as my sister. she went to hospital to check up before and the doctor told her that she got one kind of heart problem, that why her heart felt pain and felt difficult in breathing, sometime.
so today wasn't the first time that my heart ache and sometime i did felt difficult in breathing. but i think i will be alright cause this heart aching and difficult in breathing problem wasn't the first time happened on me, i had its seen last year and i still alright now.
and i was in bad mood cause i felt irritated when no one irritate me. *something really went wrong in my body. *weird*
yesterday, my head starting aching AGAIN! cause of the chalet, AGAIN! used up all the brain cell *laugh* i used it to discuss with MR CHOO, cherie, angelyn and sherrill about the plan of the second day of the chalet and we was chatting about halal food due to some reason.
in the afternoon, i went out with sherrill to library to return our book and borrow some book. then on my way home, i brought one top. but i regret now, that i had brought it. haishx. but no choice i had already brought so i need to wear.
i cancel my tuition, yesterday which is in the afternoon, cause i have no mood for tuition. after i call my tutor that i want to cancel the tuition, i just realise that how am i going to explain to my mother why i cancel it, but lucky my mother didn't ask me anything about tuition. *hehex* i have not tuition next week cause my tutor will be going to TAIWAN. why is everyone going to taiwan. even my brother is going due to his NS. *argh*
why can't we follow the right path
and do the right thing?
why must we do
what we think is right?
when it wrong!
we just do the right thing
that was told to us.
so that we won't regret...
that we didn't follow it,
it the first place!
i am wrong, i'm really sorry!
Thursday, June 08, 2006;10:32 PM
FINALLY CAN POST!!!
almost whole day discuss and planning stuff for cca chalet! until now then can post!
finally settle stuff for the chalet! i am so HAPPY! and due to the chalet, my head very pain now cause used a lot of brain cell.*lol* by the way, my instructor saved a lot of my brain cell before i want to use! really thank him!
now chating with angelyn, cherie and sherrill. very fun! we chatted a lot of funny stuff.*laugh*
today, in the afternoon. i meet up with cherie, sherrill and angelyn to discuss stuff for chalet and check out the price for the food. we also got took some photo!!! we enjoy a lot today!
=)
nothing is worth it then a happy day. =)
Wednesday, June 07, 2006;9:42 PM
what a not fun but not bored day!!
when to make passport today, with my family except. waited for about 45mins to 1hour! the next time i am going to collect the passport is on 21th!! which mean i can't go for the extra cca practice!! i WANT to go for cca but i think my parent won't allow me to go!! BUT!!! maybe i can go for the first half which is unit 12 plus, i think. cause i going to BEG my parent! SAD! so after settle stuff for the passport, we went to eat lunch at tiong baru[check spelling]. i order fishball noodle which i miss alot, cause i very long never eat it.
after lunch, went home.
so that all for my day!
but, tomorrow might be a fun day! cause i going out with sherill, cherie and angelyn. to do some stuff, we are going to enjoy ourself. *LOL*
=)
i just want to lead to my happiness!
Tuesday, June 06, 2006;9:56 PM
ahave cca today!
everything is okies.
during the training for second group was FUN. is fun to me and maybe cherie[i think], the rest i don't know. cause our instructor he did alot of funny thing. this is the second time that he does all the funny stufff, which is GOOD. he should do MORE. *laugh*
during training, he keep on knock on to stuff. he knock to the table four time that i was using one. then me and cherie keep on laugh!!! i think the thing in the room don't like him! *laugh* jusk joking!!!
so today laugh a lot during the trainging!!!
okies, now going to blog something very lame!
just now me, cherie and angelyn was CONFERENCING on the phone and i did something very LAME!!!
we were talking about our cca chalet, then i wanted to say OTAH IN THE LEAF which is equal to the normal otah sell outside. but i went to say SATAY IN THE LEAF, so angelyn and cherie was like blur cause where got SATAY IN THE LEAF. *laugh* luckily cherie was alert and she correct me. then later, we was talking about fruit.
i said "so u all want BUY apple?"
but cherie and angelyn heard the buy apple become BLACK apple. *laugh*
so i said " what BLACK apple? is BUY apple lahx! not BLACK apple! "
then we start laughing again!
the conference was very fun and FUNNY!
=)
afundayisforustorememberit
Friday, June 02, 2006;9:21 PM
having flu now...
which mean i am suffering too! cause i HATE flu. going to sick soon, which i am happy about it cause my mind can rest for awhile.
lazy to post for the past few days...
so going to tell me story now.
29 & 30 May 2006
went back to malaysian.
did enjoy myself!
play ping pong with my cousins, i think i am okies with it. didn't play for a few years, but actually i didn't even remember that i play before. so just any how try try. i also ate few dumpling, which really nice but fattening too. so now i need to stop eating too much food. :)
1 & 2 June 2006
have cca on this both day.
yesterday, rayner was funny and a bit like mr choo. so if you said that are not teacher and student, i think no one will believe. *laugh* but over all for yesterday was fun and relaxing. then today, was okies too. get to learn new song, which was very interesting. so going to learn it well.
overall for this two days is everyone really got improvement. so that GOOD!
time to leave
