fun
Saturday, May 12, 2007;8:29 PM
exam is officially ended yesterday!
therefore when out with alicia, niying, vvian, mayvelle & rachel.
had alot of fun and laughter.
took neoprints & photos.
i love the neoprints.
althought got some fuuny pose & all.
but at least i didn't look as retarded as last time that why i love it!LOL!
xD
today went to alicia's house.
as planned to go cycling at changi beach.
went i reached alicia's house, niying & vvian is there already.
watched some movie & had lunch then head to changi beach.
ps: i almost fall asleep at alicia's house!
when reached there, realised that there is no place that rent bicycle.
so when to beach for a walk.
then head to down town east.
& sort of went home with niying after that.
x)
a surprise is waiting for me.
& i am waiting for that surprise.
hahaha!
awaiting surprise. xD
Labels: i love it
awaiting for the next sunrise
Thursday, May 10, 2007;9:38 PM
I LEFT ONE PAPER!!!
ohmygosh!
it finally end.i am stress-free!
tomorrow is chinese listening, that why i am so happy!as i can't study listening!
but today biology paper is,OHMY!
i stay up last night, only slept for 15mins & the rest of the time studying!
& guess what, the paper came up with question that i didn't really study much on!
made me feel so pissed off!
but thanks daphne for telling me to memorise my notes better.
therefore i can remember!even until now the notes is still in my brain!LOL!
anyway, went some where with someone today after exam.
hang around to wait for the shop to open as we are early.
& she so nice!she brought chocolate for me!haha.
on the way home saw yeyeng, & she was so high over this boy that she think he is cute.
but too bad that boy is younger than me!LOL
then the retarded me did something so stupid!
i went to tap my ez-link card on the thingy that is out of service!
as i didn't notice cause i was messaging!ohman!
had my beauty sleep for around 4 hours.
then skipped all my meals. so i didn't eat anything.& i don't really feel hungry!
& this is all of my nice day!
i can't wait for tomorrow!
going out with alica, niying,mayvelle, vvian and rachel lim.
i hope we can eat carl junior cause i really want to eat!
& i think we going to have alot of fun tomorrow as i heard that rachel lim very funny!LOL!
awaiting for the sun to rise!xD
my money!
us money!
jap. money!
class peeps:
wifey!
rachel!
wifey&hubby<3
kiss you!
our SYF:
syf day!
GUITAR peeps:
reflection
guitarist!
angelyn is not ready!
<3
smile!<3
beverly<3
we love to do this!LOL.
we had alot of FUN!<3
it end with a beauitful photo!<3
above is some photos i suppose to post long time ago.
love!
Labels: happy kid
Tuesday, May 08, 2007;2:35 PM
9 papers down; 3 more to go & 3 days left.
account was manageable.
i study for the theory part but then when i saw the question my mind was blank!
feeling like killing myself man! argh!
i guess, i won't be able to get what target i set for all the papers.
HAIS.
my head was very pain during account.
thanks goodness when it very pain i was going to finsh the paper already.
if not i will die man!
during the paper saw someone.
& then i have no mood to continue my paper.
but then i force myself to concentrate & don't think of anything.
therefore i managed to finish the whole paper with one blank.
when i see you...
i just can't bring myself to be nice to you.
i just can't smile infront of you.
i just can't don't feel angry.
i getting more & more mean to you.
but guess what.
you are even more mean than me.
until i can't believe all this is going on.
i don't understand you as before.
or perharp i don't even understand you from the very beginning.
OHCRAP!
Labels: unhappy kid
feeling down
Monday, May 07, 2007;4:45 PM
8 papers down; 4 papers to go & 4 days left.
i cried.cause of math & physic.
from the first paper until now, i think i will fail all.
as in i have no confidence i will get what i want.
i seriously still feel like crying now!hais!
ALICIA THANK YOU LOT!you are always there for me when i am sad.
you always cheer me up with your "retardness"LOL
you simply rock!
you always there when i am up or down!
you the BEST MAN!
although i am not like you, always there for you
but i really apprecitate it lot!
THANKS YOU ALICIA!i don't know how to explain how i feel now.
but i just too sad to get angry.
i can't even concentrate to study for my paper tomorrow!
why do you suddenly mess up my life..
i don't know what should i do now.
wth!
Labels: unhappy kid
math
Sunday, May 06, 2007;10:33 PM
i am worry for my math.
i feel so tried now yet i don't dare & can't sleep.
how irritating it can be.
will i fail? i really hope i will know the answer now.
oh God! please be with me. i don't want to fail for my math.
& i can't afford to fail too! x(
feeling super down now.
due to the exam stress.
i need to "strong" until friday.
then i can go play until i drop.
got to go study again when the time now is 10.37pm & i suppose to be sleeping not studying!x/
ohgosh!for goodness sick.
God please bless me for this week.
i just need a peaceful & enjoyable week!
MISERABLE!
Labels: exam:stress
i wish
Saturday, May 05, 2007;4:13 PM
sometime;
i wish i am still a little kid
i wish i can live with not trouble
i wish i will never understand what is sadness
i wish i can be irresponsible at times
i wish i will never grow up
i wish i will never want to understand this world
i wish there is no such thing call books
i wish i can do what ever things i want
i wish i can be a music teacher
i wish i am a music talent person
i wish i am allow to chase for my dream
i wish this world only fill with nice people
i wish i am not myself
i wish i never born in this world...
suppose to be mugging now. but i cant concentrate.
& therefore i going to suffer later.
gonna really force myself to concentrate after blogging.hais.
i don't feel right.
something make me not to a cheerful kid.
what wrong?i wonder...
Labels: my desire
congratulation!
Friday, May 04, 2007;11:45 AM
firstly, SYF is over for all the pfa group. whatever we had achieved for the school.i am really very happy about it.& first time i feel so proud for all the pfa group and guitar girls that we had put in our best and done the school proud!GOOD JOBS & CONGRAT!
next, is to my sister and brother. my sister finally found a job she want/can do, less than a day, & she is working now.which is good for me in another way as she can treat me a lot of things now!xD
& for my brother he had got into both the courses he wanted to go in both NTU & NUS.just that he need to choose which school he want to go. so CONGRAT to them.
okies.now is all the crap and story time.
english and chinese paper 1 was okies. THANK YOU SARAH CHAN for telling me the letter writing formal if not i will be crying now. then paper 2 was okies for english, chinese was OHMY! it was really very difficult!only like less than half of the paper was manageable!hais.Social studies, hope will score well for SEQ but i had already lost 7-10 marks or so. as the first question of SBQ i already don't know how to do!HAIS!& today geography, lost 5 marks already. as i wrote wrong & crappy answer i just hope ms wendy won't kill me.i am speechless now. i just hope the rest of the papers i will score well. but than is difficult. i have no confidence for math and biology at all! i am really worry now & it make me feel like crying now!x(
anyway, can't wait for exam to end. as cca will resume again. therefore, maybe i will be more free than both & i going to SACPS to help up again. i miss the little kids there!they are simply too cute!
saw ruien and piere pang yesterday at airport & they waved to us. & piere pang is super funny and friendly he went around to take ruien and the other staff of mediacorp hands to wave at us. make us can't stop laughing.& he is very build too, as he change in the public but he didn't half naked himself.ps: the us was refering to jaslin, natalie, melissaLIM, michelle, may, valerie & loretta. HAHAHA!
BIG NOTICE:
SACGE performing at a concert with TPJC @ TPJC on 26th May(saturday)the ticket is $8.& is worth it to come for the concert so please come & support SAC guitar girls and other schools too!THANKS!xD
got to take a nap now as i didn't sleep for the past 2 night.my eyes going to close now!night people!xD
6 papers down, 6 more paper to go & 7 days left!x/Labels: selfHURT
STUDY!
Monday, April 23, 2007;9:40 PM
this few days, i have been studying like mad.
cause i really want to aim a
GwH for my mid.
i
don't wan any C grade.
which is highly
unlikely be possible.
OHMY!
i have been mugging really hard.
even now having slight fewer.
i still
don't wanna rest.
i just feel wrong resting while i can use the time to study.
HAIS.
AIM FOR THE WEEK:.finish biology, math, geography, account notes
.revise for math, physical, biology, account and more
.gonna mug for every second i have
Labels: love you; love you not
GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!
Thursday, April 19, 2007;8:33 PM
woke up 4plus today.i was really nervous.went to school, run through again, make up, breakfast, pray from the school and ms
loh then
HEAD TO SCH!
thinking from the first practice we had until now, i really feel like crying.*
i know is stupid to cry in front of a computer but i can't help it. i had been waiting for this
SYF, seeing the whole school wishing you all the best. seeing yourself contribute something to the school. and also work at a big family, a big team to
achieve what we wanted!and now
WE GOT IT!!!
GOLD WITH HONOURS!we had been working so hard for it.
there are practices that was really bad, good, fun, sad and angry.but without all this experience we won't be able to come here today.we had gone through so many things which are
unforgettable, which will always be in my heart.which bring us from different classes to a ensemble that learn together, to have fun together, to grow together, to bond as a
BIG FAMILY.we are also bless that
GOD had sent us
MR CHOO.he just like the father of the family, imagine a family don't have a father. so
MR CHOO is very important to us. he is such a wonderful instructor! he and
SAC GE really deserve this
GOLD WITH HONOURS!
to all the guitar girl and
mr choo: i will never forget every second of time we had together. we work so hard and now we deserve what we want. i am really happy and proud. we had really make the school proud. without any single one of you, i won't be happy now. i really thank GOD that i am belong to this BIG FAMILY and
appreciate every of your
hard work. lastly, of course i will miss every single one of you people!
ps:senior please do visit us more often. we will surely miss all your pretty faces.
xDi just feel like going back to prepare of
SYF. i miss it like MAD!!!
"...the only blame I cast is on myself... for wanting the happiness I couldn't have... and still now, can't believe I deserve..."Labels: i miss everythings
understand yet confuse
Wednesday, April 18, 2007;12:34 AM
the past 2 days was a disaster. i am so emotional. as i am really stress, due to the amount of projects that needed to hand in at one go and amount of homeworks and also partly cause of SYF(?)hais. i feel like breaking down.
i feeling emo now.it like very late now but i cant sleep. is like something make me don't feel save at all. so i cant sleep peacefully.this time round i am really stress up, all my pimples is coming up.but still thanks to natalie, michelle and natassia for cheering me up yesterday and lighten my job by completing SS project without me doing anything. i feel really bad now. but still a billion thanks to them.
yesterday i only didn't bring a workbook for the first time and teacher scolded me for not bring her books alot of time.yet i need to keep quiet to admit that i really didn't bring her book alot of time.i can admit that is my fault for not bring her book.but please get the fact right first.i hate being accuse!
my heart feel unsafe. it make me feel even more tired. i have been torture by stress from times to times. i choose to keep it all to myself. i just want to cry in my own space at my own freedom.leaving me alone make me feel even more sad yet i want it as i can really let everythings out.keeping it in my heart make me feel out of breath. i will just die.
i don't know what happened to me.i feel so disappointed, sad and stress this few days. now i am worry. i don't know what will happened in school later on. things haven't been going right this few days. i don't know how to solve all the problems. i just feel like scream at all the problems and want them to leave me. i am at the stage of turning crazy. monday night i was so stress and i didn't even want to go to school yesterday.i just need to drag myself to school.
"... lost in the darkness of my own circumstance, criticizing echoes leaving me awake in the night... the barrier and blockades that keep me safe and in control while I pretend that I am okay... "Labels: thank.dear
if it fated
Friday, April 06, 2007;9:10 PM
whoo.
my blog is so dead! didn't blog for so long.
simply because i am really busy and hardly can come online.
anyway had a very fun day today!
went out with natalie,michelle and alaine.
as we plan to study together but end up most of time we were shopping.
went suntec and MS.
saw alot of sacian but not someone.
but me and michelle had a very strong feeling that we will see someone we want to see.
saw siewcheng with her friends at mango;
natassia and melody at city hall;
natassia and amelia and her sister at MS;
and michelle's cousin;natalie's friends and alaine's senior.
one outing we can see so many people we know. YAY!
maybe will post some picture soon.
waiting for 17april we going kbox together.with group of my classmates. WHOO!
13 more days to my syf.
i am so worry whenever i thought of it and i will feel like crying.
i really don't wish that all our afford will go into drain.
people said that we have no expression, song is boring, we reaching the gold soon but still not there.
to me the song will be boring without expression and therefore we still not at gold i guess.
i don't know what can we do to make the ensemble to have at least little expression.
they really need to feel the music, understand the music, move with the music.
put yourself into the music everyone, you gals have been playing it countless time but still you all don't have any expression.i am really worry.what can we do to have some improvement?
maybe you all should go experience how MD feel when ID got gold with H. they really feel the stress and some of them even cried.seeing them like this i feel ashamed, everyone of them know how important is SYF to tell and their target is GOLD. i don't know about the guitar girl but i know someone us also know how important is SYF just that maybe not all.
if you have no heart in SYF, will you really work hard for it?
someone have been miss calling me like mad today.MADNESS!
Labels: loveDEAR
sick
Wednesday, March 28, 2007;7:56 PM
it has been long seen i last posted!
due to com. was down and i am really busy now.
i am really stress up with all the project, homework and all.
but still i am happy half of the time cause of my goody friends.
yesterday,went to buy pencil box with michelle, my wifey jaslin, natalie, rachel and may.
brought the same pencil as michelle!WHOOHOO!COOL!
last friday was GENUS concert.
first time had qinghua sit beside me.
was quite fun and enjoyable night i had.
took quite a number photo, gonna post it soon.
the best part was i given a COOLEST name for DAPHNE ANG.
it is: ANG DAO! and i gave her this name cause she every time very DAO.
then her surname is ANG. so ANG DAO!
and ANG DAO = RED BEAN! LOL
didn't go for cca today.
having a very bad flu and feeling damn weak.
so i went home with niying.
but still i don't feel any better.
missed the best part of the day which is ANG DAO WEAR CLOG SHOE AND STOCKING!!!
even though i miss it but i know it is very funny.LOL!
everyone is sick.
so take care and drink lots of water.
i just realise an apple a day keep a doctor away: it is fake!
i eat apple every days and i still fall sick!
stupid stupid stupid!
Labels: let go
overload!
Sunday, March 18, 2007;7:41 PM
i just hope tomorrow won't come!
this week is really
SIAO.CRAZY!
mon.wed.fri got
cca.
and
friday the whole day i wont be free,and
thursday got tutorial,
tuesday have board meeting
(i guess)so how am i going to do my project by this week!?!
the teachers know that
SYF is coming!
and they still give us
TONS AND TONS OF HOMEWORKS, TESTS AND PROJECTS.
cant they lighten our workload for just this few months!
worst still, i had a irresponsible class rep that doesn't tell us there is a project.
until my nice friend called and tell me the project due
TOMORROW!
full of crap
lah!
don't think that is my responsible to ask my rep when my teacher only tell her not the whole class.
so how on the earth would i know until someone tell me.
let me complain for once.cause i am really pissed!
i am fucking irritated now!
*sorry for that word.Labels: wordless
